This was my day off.
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This was my day off.
I mowed the lawn, weed wacked, power washed the patio, assembled a bounce house, moved way too heavy furniture to the basement for next garage sale (sure I'll be feeling that tomorrow) and drank half a 750ml of vodka in the process.
Felt weird posting, yet spent time perusing the posts the last 3 weeks without a drink. Thought I'd write while I'm coming down. Thought earlier about writing, before I was going up.
Today I funk'ed up. I am 20 vs. 2.
Felt weird posting, yet spent time perusing the posts the last 3 weeks without a drink. Thought I'd write while I'm coming down. Thought earlier about writing, before I was going up.
Today I funk'ed up. I am 20 vs. 2.
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I think dees hit the nail on the head there Emdeavor. It seems you only come here lately after you are drunk. If sobriety is what you seek, you need to find a way to seek help before you start drinking.
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Originally Posted by Endeavor 
You are both right and I don't know what to say. I don't enjoy looking at calendars with X's in the days, but I think I might need another one.
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Stick around, Endeavor. Eventually SoberRecovery will work its way into your brain and make it harder to drink.
Maybe read around the "Friends and Family" section to give you some perspective on what your drinking does to others.
Maybe read around the "Friends and Family" section to give you some perspective on what your drinking does to others.
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Originally Posted by Coldfusion
Stick around,Endeavor. Eventually SoberRecovery will work its way into your brain and make it harder to drink.
Maybe read around the "Friends and Family" section to give you some perspective on what your drinking does to others.
Maybe read around the "Friends and Family" section to give you some perspective on what your drinking does to others.
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Originally Posted by Dee74
You'll get back what you put into your recovery Endeavour, so give it all you've got 
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I just tossed a half bottle of Tito's out, drank like a gallon of water and I'll be totally fine tomorrow. I'm a cheap bastard and that hurt more now than the good I will likely experience later by doing it.
Life has become so much about work and family. My wife and I are great friends, but this is the one thing I keep quiet. It's like a past she knew of and we grew out of, but I still do it on my 'day off' if quoting yourself is ok.
What's f'd up is when I do take that day, I think I do so many things to counteract it, it's never an outward problem. We have substance and there is joy, but there is a real self destructive side to myself I am trying to starve.
Since I started counting it's 20 vs. 2, which equates to 10% shizhead.
As I said, I'm trying.
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My addiction counsellor said to me early in treatment "alcoholics in recovery don't get a day off". I hated him for it because sure I deserve the "odd day" off here and there. But of course, he was quite right.
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Oh, I have done very similar in the past. I think it was to make me feel better about drinking. Thing is, it neither did that, nor made the drinking "better". Still wound up pretty much the same, just drunk and craving.
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Maybe you could try to focus on what you could do to support your recovery, besides stopping drinking. You might be surprised how small changes in lifestyle help to make you feel better about yourself and therefore encourage sobriety.
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Originally Posted by totfit
Oh, I have done very similar in the past. I think it was to make me feel better about drinking.
I'll try for no more days off for as long as I can.
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Originally Posted by Anna
Maybe you could try to focus on what you could do to support your recovery, besides stopping drinking. You might be surprised how small changes in lifestyle help to make you feel better about yourself and therefore encourage sobriety.
I've been thinking about taking up bike riding again. I'm going to try to remember or condition myself so the next time I think about picking up a bottle, I'll throw on my helmet and ride a 5-10K around the area.
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Originally Posted by Endeavor
This is good advice.
I've been thinking about taking up bike riding again. I'm going to try to remember or condition myself so the next time I think about picking up a bottle, I'll throw on my helmet and ride a 5-10K around the area.
I've been thinking about taking up bike riding again. I'm going to try to remember or condition myself so the next time I think about picking up a bottle, I'll throw on my helmet and ride a 5-10K around the area.
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Some good advice here Endeavor.
Your post really rung a bell for my. All those days I spent being "super productive" while drinking. I'd build things, paint things, mow things, clean things, etc. I'd be really proud of myself and tell my wife, "look how good a job I did!" Then I'd come back the next day (whenever the hangover allowed me to get out of bed) and look at it all, and I'd realize that the things I built didn't have one right angle, that the things I painted were sloppy and needed to be re-done, that the things I mowed were rough and uneven, and that the things I cleaned really weren't that clean.
Your post really rung a bell for my. All those days I spent being "super productive" while drinking. I'd build things, paint things, mow things, clean things, etc. I'd be really proud of myself and tell my wife, "look how good a job I did!" Then I'd come back the next day (whenever the hangover allowed me to get out of bed) and look at it all, and I'd realize that the things I built didn't have one right angle, that the things I painted were sloppy and needed to be re-done, that the things I mowed were rough and uneven, and that the things I cleaned really weren't that clean.
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Originally Posted by 0percentABV
Do it. Cycling was my go to recovery activity. I especially cherish my early Sunday morning rides. The world is yours because most everyone is still passed out. But what you also need is a sober plan. Fill up your days with things to do. And make sure you leave room for focusing on your recovery too.
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Originally Posted by Username7775
Some good advice here Endeavor.
Your post really rung a bell for my. All those days I spent being "super productive" while drinking. I'd build things, paint things, mow things, clean things, etc. I'd be really proud of myself and tell my wife, "look how good a job I did!" Then I'd come back the next day (whenever the hangover allowed me to get out of bed) and look at it all, and I'd realize that the things I built didn't have one right angle, that the things I painted were sloppy and needed to be re-done, that the things I mowed were rough and uneven, and that the things I cleaned really weren't that clean.
Your post really rung a bell for my. All those days I spent being "super productive" while drinking. I'd build things, paint things, mow things, clean things, etc. I'd be really proud of myself and tell my wife, "look how good a job I did!" Then I'd come back the next day (whenever the hangover allowed me to get out of bed) and look at it all, and I'd realize that the things I built didn't have one right angle, that the things I painted were sloppy and needed to be re-done, that the things I mowed were rough and uneven, and that the things I cleaned really weren't that clean.
Yet, I will admit, I do tend to leave a few things undone which should have been done, but must tend to it the next day if I'm really working hard on that 'day off' of mine.
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Originally Posted by Endeavor
OK, this one gave me a laugh. You're right of course, but it was never done wrong. I just don't get that belligerent using power tools! Yet, I will admit, I do tend to leave a few things undone which should have been done, but must tend to it the next day if I'm really working hard on that 'day off' of mine.
Yet, I will admit, I do tend to leave a few things undone which should have been done, but must tend to it the next day if I'm really working hard on that 'day off' of mine.
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