babykittens

I wanna get out of my skin, gotta step out of my skin,
Trapped inside myself and this perpetual emotional state I'm in

Body on nervosa, Anna says self-deprivation defends against hunger others impose,
stuff down feelings I can't dispose of,
Can anyone suggest something to counter-act both of those?

I only wanna be by myself,
but can't seem to be alone with out destroying my mental health

I don't connect unless I can relate to a sick feeling inside of your chest,
Emotional confusion or self imposed internal entropy, and nothing less

We’ll play the charade, portray normal, but I bet you can guess,
The reason you like me, is the reason I like you, and this connection doesn't mean that we’re blessed

And if I ever happen to entrap a normal soul, he won't stay that way,
If I latch onto a saner mind , only a matter of time before he’ll eventually pay

So I'll invest in your sickness, that wound I sense inside your soul,
Cause just like me, you've already paid , to someone else who ripped that hole

Just let the broken people rest, until they loathe themselves whole,
Fast asleep so we can't see, this bed that we’ve made, recklessly try to gain control

I'll love you cause I need to, and you'll pretend that you're not aware,
I'll let you love me, pretend to believe it, acknowledge that elephant?
We both wouldn't dare

So what else should we do, anyone got some better advice?
Cause no one wants to love unless they receive it and we're both too familiar with use of another vice

Buried away with our mutual secrets, our plan to never be alone,
Latch onto me, I'll attach to you, and in this closet we’ll both share a home

Is it sick that I need you, just an object to call the source of my pain?
Yes it's quick, cause we can sense it, this attachments the whole point of the game

You don't know me, anymore than I know you,
We just met, but I'm willing to bet, I could put words to that shame inside you've never been able to

Codepency, sure it fits, but what's in a name?
Codepency is a relationship after all, besides we both know the rules when it comes to blame

No one to ask us why we are this way, Cause we both already know,
Come and comfort me with your crazy, make me feel like I'm at home

I recognize those fretful faces, that you make while you go about your day,
The faces that make others fret, wondering why you act that way

Come and hold me, come control me, with that hurt we both know love is about,
Come control me, don't expose me, cause we both know the rules, and that's not allowed

MissNewLife

<3 Love!

babykittens

Thanks MissNewLife!!...for loving the poem, and for letting me know) <3