Relapse after 16 Months
Relapse after 16 Months
After 16 Months of doing good, and going to meetings, the obsessional thoughts came back a few days ago. I bought a box of beer last night and had 8.
I never lifted the phone until it was too late. I feel like sh*t today. Not a good feeling to have. Sickness and runs. Needless to say, I don't want anymore, I was lucky. Immediate family were told, but I start day 1 again.
I suppose I am excited about going on Holiday on Monday., and maybe that was a factor.
I just wanted to get that out there.
I never lifted the phone until it was too late. I feel like sh*t today. Not a good feeling to have. Sickness and runs. Needless to say, I don't want anymore, I was lucky. Immediate family were told, but I start day 1 again.
I suppose I am excited about going on Holiday on Monday., and maybe that was a factor.
I just wanted to get that out there.
Kevin, I am so glad you came here and posted.
I had 17 months of a great life and went back out. I would give back every drink I had if I could change what happened that led me back here.
You came back here after one day. You learned how good it can be in that 16 months, you can do this and you know it. You also know the outcome of what drinking felt like due to how you feel now. Not worth it!
You're back in the saddle and that's what's most important!
I had 17 months of a great life and went back out. I would give back every drink I had if I could change what happened that led me back here.
You came back here after one day. You learned how good it can be in that 16 months, you can do this and you know it. You also know the outcome of what drinking felt like due to how you feel now. Not worth it!
You're back in the saddle and that's what's most important!
I plan to continue doing what I have been doing, and more. I feel ill today and that's the best outcome of this for me. There are plenty of meetings available, I got no excuse for not goung . Just gonna put this down as a blip and learn from it.
Welcome back, some people go back out and never make it back.
Try to learn from this, and put preventive steps in place to keep it from re-occuring.
This is why I don't count sober days. You had around 500 days and now you are back at one. That can be depressing if you let it, so don't. I used to count days and got over 2000, then I screwed up. Now I've got well over 2000 days again, but it doesn't matter to me. The only day that is important is Today.
Try to learn from this, and put preventive steps in place to keep it from re-occuring.
This is why I don't count sober days. You had around 500 days and now you are back at one. That can be depressing if you let it, so don't. I used to count days and got over 2000, then I screwed up. Now I've got well over 2000 days again, but it doesn't matter to me. The only day that is important is Today.
Hi Kevin, don't be too hard on yourself. I'm sure it made you remember why you quit in the first place! I agree with Zen about not starting from Day 1 again/counting days. That would be depressing! You had a lot of sobriety there, just pick up where you left off.
Welcome back Kevin!! Sixteen months is quite an impressive amount of sober time, sounds like you had a good plan in place and you know what you need to add to it.
Good for you for coming back here right away today, I have made the mistake in the past of not posting after I have slipped, and the drinking continues beyond that one time.
Onward and upward for you!
Good for you for coming back here right away today, I have made the mistake in the past of not posting after I have slipped, and the drinking continues beyond that one time.
Onward and upward for you!
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Blips are seemingly innocuous,little things, they happen so whatevs.
Maybe change the consideration here and call it a blab , learn 'from' it yeah of course that would help, not that there is much to learn after , maybe focus on what you might learn about "the few days of thoughts" and planning on and acting on to go to the store for a box. That's a blab
But great job putting the brakes on , seriously, rooting for ya, glad the feeling like shite helps, hope that improves and you enjoy a good healthy holiday
Maybe change the consideration here and call it a blab , learn 'from' it yeah of course that would help, not that there is much to learn after , maybe focus on what you might learn about "the few days of thoughts" and planning on and acting on to go to the store for a box. That's a blab
But great job putting the brakes on , seriously, rooting for ya, glad the feeling like shite helps, hope that improves and you enjoy a good healthy holiday
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Wow 16 months is awesome, but to hear that you are still battling it sometimes, or at least this time is very eye opening and a bit scary for me. I have 298 days sober, and I feel very confident about things, but I guess your story is can serve as a great reminder that we always have be be vigilant, and not put ourselves in situations that could prove to be dangerous to our sobriety.
Thanks for posting, and make sure that you forgive yourself, The pity party that could come from slipping could also create more cravings. You know what to do....you've got this.
Thanks for posting, and make sure that you forgive yourself, The pity party that could come from slipping could also create more cravings. You know what to do....you've got this.
Last edited by MrSmith; 07-02-2016 at 08:25 PM. Reason: typo
There must be something about the year and a half mark that causes relapse, because it feels like we've read several stories lately of people slipping or relapsing at around 18 months.
You haven't lost those 16 months. You never can. As long as you don't pick up another drink, you will be able to continue on. The important part will not be feeling justified in picking a drink - "might as well have another now," or something along those lines.
You haven't lost those 16 months. You never can. As long as you don't pick up another drink, you will be able to continue on. The important part will not be feeling justified in picking a drink - "might as well have another now," or something along those lines.
You drank. You now feel ill.
Absolute proof there's nothing there for you now.
I break my last sick memories out every time I feel "itchy".
Obviously its not ideal that you picked up but, I commend you for dealing with it like you did. That whole "going on a bender" thing isn't a necessary part of a slip. I wish more people would remember that.
Absolute proof there's nothing there for you now.
I break my last sick memories out every time I feel "itchy".
Obviously its not ideal that you picked up but, I commend you for dealing with it like you did. That whole "going on a bender" thing isn't a necessary part of a slip. I wish more people would remember that.
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