thomas11

I recently did something completely out of character for me, and I paid the price emotionally and physically. What I did does not matter (I did not drink). But let's just say I learned a valuable lesson. It was the kind of behavior I engaged in when I was in my 20's. The only one hurt was me. It made me take a personal inventory of myself and realize that if I want to achieve the goals I have set for myself before I die, they will not happen being foolish and engaging in decadent behavior.

I have recovered from the shame and am refocused.

Lastly, I have chosen a new career that requires some schooling and licensing. I start on July 5th. It will be tough the first year as any new business is, but the ceiling on income is potentially very high, which is one reason I chose it. The other reason being that I have been accepted into an elite group of individuals in this industry, and am honored they are accepting me to be part of their team. Hope everyone is having a good day.

ccam1973

Great job on refocusing Jeff. The new job / profession sounds really good. You've been in the self-employed world for a long time. I'm glad things are shaping up for you professionally.

Good job on not drinking through this lesson. Bottom line, things fall into place as long as we are sober.

Soberwolf

Good on you Jeff learn & move on stick with us

JD

Sounds like exciting times Jeff. You're right, you don't want to mess it up with behavior which is not becoming of you.

Hawkeye13

I think now that you've got a concrete objective and path chosen to get there,
you'll find things even out--
I think you and I are the same in that we need something to do
and perhaps "be-ing" is a bit tougher.

Glad you are re-focused on what addictive behavior is.
I find it turning up in many non-drinking areas of life as well. . .
Good luck on your new vocation!

thomas11

ccam, I've been out of work for about a year, I have abstained in bad behavior, primarily because I have been sober. There came a fork in the road and I have could have gone either way, but I believe I chose the right path in the road.

thomas11

100% percent correct.

SnazzyDresser

Intriguing, good luck in your new career!

thomas11

Hawkeye, I appreciate your input. At the end of the day, what I did proves we are all infallible. Its just the truth.

Delilah1

Hi Jeff,

The new job sounds very promising! Will you be going to school and working simultaneously, or do you need to complete the classes first?

Whatever happened is in the past, you sound ready to move on. Hope this is the beginning of many good things for you!

AdelineRose

Congrats on the new job opportunity! Part of recovery is constantly pushing ourselves forward and bettering ourselves so we reach our full potential and get to a place where you don't have to always go "what if".

I too have found myself exhibiting addict behavior without actually using. Some old habits die hard such as telling a lie even though you don't have to, being sneaky, isolating, hiding items, over taking medicine (I sometimes find myself taking 5 Advil instead of 2.. because "oh 2 won't do anything"), etc. It doesn't matter what you did, as long as you have learned something from it and move forward

rc4dt1

Great job recognizing it and good luck with the new career! Hopefully it's something you can find meaning and inspiration from in addition to the money.

Mountainmanbob

First I stopped drinking.
Then I let go of some old ideas.
Then we recovery from our past.
MB