ICanDoBetter

Gadzooks. I seem to have broken the pattern on work days, but summertime weekends are proving hard thus far and cravings abound.

AdelineRose

Keep working on your recovery and just like you broke the pattern of thinking on work days you will be able to do the same with weekends!

Maybe finding new activities to do on the nice summer day weekends will help give you things to look forward to that don't involve substances? That is what I personally do..as long as I have small things to look forward to through out the day then I am able to tackle the weekends without much cravings.

ICanDoBetter

That has been working most of the time. I have some forced down/rest rime though, which means not brain nearly as active. It's wearing on me.

I did make a new experimental fruit drink this week though. Juice of two lemons and half an orange. Add slices of half an orange, 8 oz coconut water, and about 16 oz seltzer. Then stir in about two cups of fresh mixed berries that have been mixed with a little coconut palm sugar and left to sit for half an hour, then puréed. Delicious :-)

ICanDoBetter

Won't lie though. Spent the better part of today wanting to drink. Ugh. And I easily could have but didn't it. Due to whatever this health issue is I wake up most days feeling like I have a hangover despite obviously that not being the culprit. T minus three weeks til I can see the specialist in tired of walking around in a fog and having zero energy or ambition. Well, that's not exactly true- I'm getting some things done but my tolerance for people is way down, including my family.

sweetichick

Hey I can do better,
I spent most of Saturday desperate for a drink and no particular reason why. It was so bad that my boyfriend took my car keys away from me. After getting through that Sunday was a great day with no cravings. So I think its just a matter of riding them out and do whatever works for you. I felt so much stronger after getting through Saturday.

sweetichick

I also walk around in a fog and have zero energy atm. I'm filling my body with healthy food and each day I have slightly more energy. A friend said to me that you can't walk away unharmed straight away from years of abuse. The only way out is through.

JennaRoseMadre

Stay strong, please. You're worth it.

ICanDoBetter

I'm trying .. Somehow almost four months in I didn't see all of these new triggers coming - and feeling terrible all the time leaves my AV to chime in. The brain says "if you feel lousy drinking won't help" but the AV tries to counter.

I'm finding myself more depressed as I'm low on energy and not exercising or doing much, which is in itself a catch 22. I did tackle a lot of yard work last week but I've found hat too much physical exertion leaves me feeling that much sicker for the next few days including dizzy spells and nagging headaches. Yet exercising is my stress relief and calming agent.

AnvilheadII

recovery sure isn't a straight line is it? you do seem to be in touch with your body, your "wellness" and the ever present nagging AV. i know it's annoying and wearing, but you are DOING it!

i really think you should start a blog or something with your fabulous drink experiments! they all sound MARVELOUS. you really have a skill there.......explore it!

ICanDoBetter

Thanks :-). I looked up some recipes and then just started winging it. Unfortunately anyone else I show them to says "where's the rum?" Or "you forgot the vodka!" Annòying.