SpringWater

Well, I did go to a meeting Friday after work. And I went home and drank 3/4 of a bottle of wine. Yesterday I went early to a meeting and ended up making coffee and staying after to clean up. I felt pretty good. But by the evening I was an anxious wreck and drank my wine (a little bit less but still drank).

I get so anxious in the evenings. I get full of fear and I don't know why. So, I guess I am not doing well.

But, I am going to keep going to AA. I just feel awful for drinking.

skipper123

The evenings seem to be a trigger for me too. It sounds like you are doing the right things by going to meetings maybe find something calming to do afterwards.

maimaitreya

Just keep going. You're trying and that's what counts. Keep trying, never give up. Can you find someone from the meeting to hang with for awhile in the evenings? Maybe ask someone to keep you company. Would that help? Or hit SR chat? I dunno. Stick with it springwater.

sugarbear1

Those steps helped me with my fears. Fear had ruled my life. It doesn't today!