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Old 06-01-2016, 08:35 PM
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I'm back for good

Tried moderation. Surprise, suprise, it didn't work. I'm sick and tired of feeling sick and tired and full of self loathing and anxiety. I'm over my poor me, self pitying persona. It's not the true me.
I am here and as of today I QUIT. No smoking, no drinking. No more excuses or running away.
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Old 06-01-2016, 08:36 PM
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Old 06-01-2016, 08:38 PM
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Old 06-01-2016, 08:45 PM
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Welcome back noneever. Any plans for what you might try differently this time?
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Old 06-01-2016, 08:49 PM
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Welcome back. I failed to quit many times myself, so don't feel too bad. Self loathing will not get you sober.
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Old 06-01-2016, 08:54 PM
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Welcome back, and I'm glad that SR is part of your recovery plan.
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Old 06-01-2016, 09:03 PM
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What I'm going to do differently this time is actually do/ use the tools I have, rather than just think about them. Posting here. Rereading the books on quitting/ recovery. Seeing my psychologist. Exercise. Meditation. Journaling. Gratitude diary. Staying in the present moment and being ok with not always feeling ok. Basically, it's just time for me to grow up and accept finally that drinking is never a good choice for me.
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Old 06-01-2016, 09:19 PM
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Old 06-01-2016, 09:27 PM
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Old 06-01-2016, 09:51 PM
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Old 06-02-2016, 03:33 AM
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good to see you .. have you got any ideas of a recovery plan
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Old 06-02-2016, 05:50 AM
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Old 06-02-2016, 06:25 PM
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Welcome back. So what's your plan to get and stay sober?
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Old 06-03-2016, 02:50 AM
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Day 2- have spent hours reading sobriety blogs and keeping myself busy.
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Old 06-03-2016, 03:10 AM
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Old 06-03-2016, 04:41 AM
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Good for you on your decision to quit! Welcome back.
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Old 06-03-2016, 04:51 AM
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welcome back! I too tried moderation and realize for me there is no such thing. i am on day 6 and already feeling great. you can do it!!!
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Old 06-03-2016, 04:54 AM
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Old 06-03-2016, 04:56 AM
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Basically, it's just time for me to grow up and accept finally that drinking is never a good choice for me.
Isn't that the truth!! I was just thinking this about myself yesterday. I was also thinking about how absolutely selfish I have been to put my family through this BS. They've had to live with a "rattlesnake" in the room for a while. Never knowing when it will strike. I do feel the same way about this analogy, BUT I know that I am the only one who can stop this and protect them from another episode. Another disappointment.

I don't know when it will strike either, but I have the tools to stop it if I pull them out and use them. You can do this noneever!
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Old 06-04-2016, 04:12 AM
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Day 3 done and dusted as I'm heading off to do a night shift. Feeling subdued but ok. Been sleeply poorly but I expected it.
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