New Member, 3rd day sober
New Member, 3rd day sober
Day 3, I've failed many attempts in the past but this time I cannot, I am mentally and physically at rock bottom. I've lost my girlfriend, my roomate has basically given up on me. I have like, eight dollars in my bank account and need to pay rent in two weeks. I started smoking again. I can't go another day like this. I can't keep feeling like i'm letting myself and everyone who cares about me down. I drunk lost my laptop stylus and phone in the same night neither of which I can afford to replace both of which I need for work. And have no memory of it at all, I completely blacked out. It's been slowly getting out of hand for years, the night i lost my phone I had a fifth of vodka, two four lokos and like five beers, which I don't even remember buying. It's like i'm on a self destruction auto pilot. It's like i feel dirty in a way I can't wash off. Disgusted with my own behavior. This is the last time I quit, I'm am completely broken. It's day three and only slept maybe a few hours, it feels like no hours, plus my mood is just all over the place. I tried by myself before but i need help that's why i'm here now. Don't have money to get to a meeting right now. I guess I need to be around people who have been through the same thing
Hello and welcome.
You're in the right spot. I've been through the same thing. Only multiply it by ten years. I've lost everything more times I can remember. Been homeless, sleeping on friends couches and then stealing from them to get more booze.
Drank on the job, lost 'em. Found a trade where drinking was an accepted part of it. Perfect.
You're not alone. I've been there. The blackouts. The bewilderment of it all the next day and all that regret.
I hit bottom so many times eventually I just stayed there. Didn't care as long as I had my booze.
It's been over five years now since I've had a drink now. Thanks to this place and AA. I would recommend that if you don't have money to get to a meeting, call and ask for one. Someone will be glad to help.
It isn't the end of the world for you, not yet anyway, there is hope and salvation. Trust me, I was about as bad as it gets. And the end of my little drunken world did come to an end. I'll spare you the gory details.
Congratulations on three days. That's a great start. Remember, you never have to drink again. I'm living proof. Things can and will get better the longer you stay sober. I promise.
Stick around this place. You've helped me by reminding me what it's like 'Out there'. So, thank you for your post.
Hang in there and best to you.
You're in the right spot. I've been through the same thing. Only multiply it by ten years. I've lost everything more times I can remember. Been homeless, sleeping on friends couches and then stealing from them to get more booze.
Drank on the job, lost 'em. Found a trade where drinking was an accepted part of it. Perfect.
You're not alone. I've been there. The blackouts. The bewilderment of it all the next day and all that regret.
I hit bottom so many times eventually I just stayed there. Didn't care as long as I had my booze.
It's been over five years now since I've had a drink now. Thanks to this place and AA. I would recommend that if you don't have money to get to a meeting, call and ask for one. Someone will be glad to help.
It isn't the end of the world for you, not yet anyway, there is hope and salvation. Trust me, I was about as bad as it gets. And the end of my little drunken world did come to an end. I'll spare you the gory details.
Congratulations on three days. That's a great start. Remember, you never have to drink again. I'm living proof. Things can and will get better the longer you stay sober. I promise.
Stick around this place. You've helped me by reminding me what it's like 'Out there'. So, thank you for your post.
Hang in there and best to you.
Right there with you. Sunday I was laying in a hospital bed wondering why the nurses were so nice to me when obviously I was such a worthless screw up. I had some sobriety once upon a time. And I'm going to fight to get it back. Let's fight together.
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That attitude will take you very far in life. Welcome.
Let's do it!!! No going back at this point, I miss those days, when I had like interests that weren't just finding more alcohol. I'm not about to give up, let's rock it out.
Okay? Cravings weren't as bad today, but last night I didn't sleep like, at all, and just the weirdest dreams. I lied down expecting to get some kind of sleep and tossed and turn for four hours, literally, I wish I was kidding, then if I did nod off I would wake up every few minutes it felt like. It was miserable then I had to work all day. Almost had a moment of weakness but decided to come post here instead.
Hello and welcome.
You're in the right spot. I've been through the same thing. Only multiply it by ten years. I've lost everything more times I can remember. Been homeless, sleeping on friends couches and then stealing from them to get more booze.
Drank on the job, lost 'em. Found a trade where drinking was an accepted part of it. Perfect.
You're not alone. I've been there. The blackouts. The bewilderment of it all the next day and all that regret.
I hit bottom so many times eventually I just stayed there. Didn't care as long as I had my booze.
It's been over five years now since I've had a drink now. Thanks to this place and AA. I would recommend that if you don't have money to get to a meeting, call and ask for one. Someone will be glad to help.
It isn't the end of the world for you, not yet anyway, there is hope and salvation. Trust me, I was about as bad as it gets. And the end of my little drunken world did come to an end. I'll spare you the gory details.
Congratulations on three days. That's a great start. Remember, you never have to drink again. I'm living proof. Things can and will get better the longer you stay sober. I promise.
Stick around this place. You've helped me by reminding me what it's like 'Out there'. So, thank you for your post.
Hang in there and best to you.
You're in the right spot. I've been through the same thing. Only multiply it by ten years. I've lost everything more times I can remember. Been homeless, sleeping on friends couches and then stealing from them to get more booze.
Drank on the job, lost 'em. Found a trade where drinking was an accepted part of it. Perfect.
You're not alone. I've been there. The blackouts. The bewilderment of it all the next day and all that regret.
I hit bottom so many times eventually I just stayed there. Didn't care as long as I had my booze.
It's been over five years now since I've had a drink now. Thanks to this place and AA. I would recommend that if you don't have money to get to a meeting, call and ask for one. Someone will be glad to help.
It isn't the end of the world for you, not yet anyway, there is hope and salvation. Trust me, I was about as bad as it gets. And the end of my little drunken world did come to an end. I'll spare you the gory details.
Congratulations on three days. That's a great start. Remember, you never have to drink again. I'm living proof. Things can and will get better the longer you stay sober. I promise.
Stick around this place. You've helped me by reminding me what it's like 'Out there'. So, thank you for your post.
Hang in there and best to you.
Amen, it's important because after while it starts to fade away and you want to remember exactly how bad it hurts. The second you start to rationalize that is wasn't that bad the sooner you start making excuses to drink again.
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