6 months sober
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6 months sober
A big thanks to all who have helped me along the way over the recent months during the times I have needed support and found it from many people on here.
It's a journey I never thought I would be on after spending 30 years being an absolute head case, it was pretty much all I ever knew / enjoyed.
The realisation that there's plenty more to life than drink and drugs and being on another planet is so rewarding and makes life really worth living.
An appreciation of what really matters in life and what is important.
It's certainly not all been plain sailing with a good few ups and downs and expect there to be more along the way but I know it is a decision that has saved me from myself and the road to ruin that I was most certainly on if it continued any longer, either that or losing my sanity - probably both.
That's why picking up that first drink or drug is simply not an option - there's another side to me that I can't control once I start and who is ultimately a danger to my health and sanity but I can control him not making another appearance simply by not picking up that first drink or drug - I don't do it he doesn't appear and has no control.
For those of you just starting out and finding it tough please stick with it at all costs, you genuinely will not live to regret it - it's without doubt the best move I've ever made (not sure what he thinks but you know what I don't really care, I've found peace and my life is so much calmer without him destroying me).
It's a journey I never thought I would be on after spending 30 years being an absolute head case, it was pretty much all I ever knew / enjoyed.
The realisation that there's plenty more to life than drink and drugs and being on another planet is so rewarding and makes life really worth living.
An appreciation of what really matters in life and what is important.
It's certainly not all been plain sailing with a good few ups and downs and expect there to be more along the way but I know it is a decision that has saved me from myself and the road to ruin that I was most certainly on if it continued any longer, either that or losing my sanity - probably both.
That's why picking up that first drink or drug is simply not an option - there's another side to me that I can't control once I start and who is ultimately a danger to my health and sanity but I can control him not making another appearance simply by not picking up that first drink or drug - I don't do it he doesn't appear and has no control.
For those of you just starting out and finding it tough please stick with it at all costs, you genuinely will not live to regret it - it's without doubt the best move I've ever made (not sure what he thinks but you know what I don't really care, I've found peace and my life is so much calmer without him destroying me).
And I totally agree with you -- today we are truly free.
Have much sober fun today,
MB
Hi, Andy,
Way to go on six months. I recall when you first came on board here on SR and it sounds like life is indeed much different -- and better -- for you. That rocks!
I think you've hit the nail on the head. Picking up again is simply not an option. I really believe that's the attitude that opens the door to ongoing sobriety.
Keep up the great work.
Way to go on six months. I recall when you first came on board here on SR and it sounds like life is indeed much different -- and better -- for you. That rocks!
I think you've hit the nail on the head. Picking up again is simply not an option. I really believe that's the attitude that opens the door to ongoing sobriety.
Keep up the great work.
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Join Date: Nov 2015
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Hi, Andy,
Way to go on six months. I recall when you first came on board here on SR and it sounds like life is indeed much different -- and better -- for you. That rocks!
I think you've hit the nail on the head. Picking up again is simply not an option. I really believe that's the attitude that opens the door to ongoing sobriety.
Keep up the great work.
Way to go on six months. I recall when you first came on board here on SR and it sounds like life is indeed much different -- and better -- for you. That rocks!
I think you've hit the nail on the head. Picking up again is simply not an option. I really believe that's the attitude that opens the door to ongoing sobriety.
Keep up the great work.
Still working on how to handle situations and not getting worked up / anxious unnecessarily - don't feel comfortable at all at present around it or watching others enjoy themselves - still need to work on that but it can wait for now.
Got to me a bit over the last 24 hours as something that has been troubling me for a good while, well from day 1 to be honest has now come to the fore and a decision needs to be made, we have our holiday booked (7 months ago) - flights paid for, deposit on the hotels paid to but I am not in the right frame of mind at all to be sat around others drinking 24/7 - it just doesn't seem like any fun at all still and whilst I'm really enjoying the benefits of sobriety and know its the only way forward it is something I'm still not getting my head around. They are both All inclusive hotels / swim up bars etc - just not going to be any fun there at all if I start getting myself worked up the way I have done.
Thankfully my wife is now understanding that it maybe too soon to do that so hoping we can find something else - possibly an apartment away from the party atmosphere of a hotel - the wife doesn't see it that way but that's all I ever see around a holiday - party time and heavy drinking, especially one of the weeks at the hotel we have been to the previous 2 years and where my last night of drinking happened in November - just don't want to return to that place at all - ever - I know I couldn't pick up as its not an option but still not ready I guess to test the water on that side of things. I'm sure most would agree the simple answer is change the plans and avoid any potentially uncomfortable places.
Seems that's where I really struggle with anything that I associate with my old ways, meaning I avoid anything I used to do socially pretty much - also any socialising at work with colleagues or entertaining customer - forget it, I'm finding other enjoyable stuff to do but its also taking its toll on what the wife can do / enjoy, she's been fantastic and is 100 % behind me and realises that life is so much better now than it was before but I can still see that she feels she's missing out because of me, I would love to say lets go there but I really just don't feel right just yet to do that.
That apart it really is going well - guess in time it will be fine.
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