Being OK, Even GLAD I'll NEver Drink Again
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Being OK, Even GLAD I'll NEver Drink Again
Most of you know that in my nearly 12 months of sobriety I have experienced a LOT of ups and downs. There have been times when I really wanted to drink, I felt like I was missing out, I was angry at the world, I was angry I was alcoholic, I wanted to die because living sober was just too painful and if it wasn't painful it was boring and I didn't want any part of it.
Well, I've been much more peaceful for the past month and last week, in a meeting, it came to me. A little voice in my head said "You are never going to have a drink again, and you are completely ok with that. You really are bunny!" And just like that, a wave of relief swept over me. I was not angry I could never drink. I was not sad. I did not and do not feel like I am missing out on anything either. It was as if someone said to me "You can never eat canned green beans again." Like yeah, ok, I am totally, totally fine with that.
The purpose of this post is to show that the obsession doesn't go away overnight. The anger and the mourning for alcohol doesn't go away overnight. But if you keep at it, one day at a time and don't pick up that poison, you WILL build a life where alcohol/drugs no longer interest you.
Well, I've been much more peaceful for the past month and last week, in a meeting, it came to me. A little voice in my head said "You are never going to have a drink again, and you are completely ok with that. You really are bunny!" And just like that, a wave of relief swept over me. I was not angry I could never drink. I was not sad. I did not and do not feel like I am missing out on anything either. It was as if someone said to me "You can never eat canned green beans again." Like yeah, ok, I am totally, totally fine with that.
The purpose of this post is to show that the obsession doesn't go away overnight. The anger and the mourning for alcohol doesn't go away overnight. But if you keep at it, one day at a time and don't pick up that poison, you WILL build a life where alcohol/drugs no longer interest you.
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You are never going to have a drink again, and you are completely ok with that.
I hope , pray and work on keeping it like that ..
Stay strong
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Thanks for the post Bunny. In a world like ours of instant gratification, no one wants to work for anything and everybody wants whatever they desire right when they desire it. I think in the end, the struggles and putting in the time makes our achievements that much more important and valuable to us. Stories like yours are very inspiring and reinforce that message in my eyes. Thanks for sharing!!
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Yep!! And the next stage is where you begin to consistently and deeply feel blessed that you no longer need or want alcohol, because you've come to so cherish and enjoy life that you see alcohol only as something that distracts from - not adds to - the experience and the richness of living.
Great post, thank you!
Great post, thank you!
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