DaniBee

I was a severe alcoholic, as my father is. Quitting sucked and hurt, both physically and emotionally. Now, I'm having severe panic attacks, emotional outbursts and irrational thoughts.

I go to 4 meetings a week, a therapist, a psychiatrist, and have a great sponsor. But I just feel those feelings and I remember how much I hated those feelings. I remember drowning those feelings.

Know this is a newcomer area but I w a s wondering if anyone had any insight into why, after 7 months of sobriety this stuff I s coming back up.

Glad this forum exists, btw.

Thanks,
Danielle

Mountainmanbob

Sounds like you have started a nice sober tool belt.
Although I'm always looking to add sober tools if you know what I mean.
Why do some suffer with the desire to drink for a long time
and others seem to find a quick fast escape from these thoughts?
Dr Bob of the Big Book had to fight the desire for a very long time.
Yet, he did not give in and stayed sober.

As we know it's worth the fight
so as to become an overcomer.

Mountainmanbob

DaniBee

Thanks for the wise words, mountainmanbob.

I spoke w with my sponsor about this today and she said, "maybe God thinks you're ready."

I just hope my emotions can even out. It has been a stressful few d days.

But today, I chose ice cream over alcohol. And while I'm struggling with my weight gain, I'm proud d of that choice.

OfEpiphany

Do not drink, I also am at 7 months and am experiencing a torrent of negative thoughts. It makes me feel heavy and tired, but do not give up your 7 months of sobriety. Remember how much you've gone through to obtain 7 months, don't let your mind trick you into thinking it doesn't matter. You will instantly regret it, I know I would.

If nothing is working, just white knuckle it if you have to, any reason not to drink is better than drinking. You will regret it instantly. Instantly, the day will be over, no one stops time, you will wake up hung over and think, "Day 1...." ..

7 months is massive, keep it going. Hit 1 year. And keep going.

Kaily

I am afraid I don't have any words of wisdom but I hope you manage to surf this wave and continue on your sober journey.

strategery

I found I was having to deal with a lot of the same stuff that triggered me to drink (as well as feelings) at 7 months. However, part of sobriety is learning to live with those feelings. The feelings won't harm you. They're uncomfortable, but they will pass. When I struggled with feelings, I always thought of the quote, "Lessons in life will be repeated until they are learned". They get easier to deal with. Keep on hanging in there.

Soberwolf

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

least

I was going to suggest counseling but you're already doing that. The only thing I can suggest is to try practicing gratitude every day. That's what I did when my recovery was stalled and I was miserable at 3 months sober. It made a big difference in my attitude and my recovery.

Meraviglioso

No wise words of wisdom here but wanted to send you some support.

mecanix

Sometimes when i've had to feel feelings sober , ones i can't escape or turn off .

i've had to do the work of dealing with my resentments , seeing what i needed to do to change , what i had to learn , what i had to humbly accept .

It will get better if you keep on working on yourself , getting as much support as you can , you will learn and grow and live a glorious life if thats what you want

It takes time , i'm sorry about that but if you work on it it will get better .

m