Journey of Hope
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Journey of Hope
Yesterday I was having a really rough day but God let a blessing happen for me last night. I went to visit family and a few family members were there that I hadn't seen in a very long time. That was so special to me to see them and we laughed, loved and caught up on life. It helped me take my mind off of my breakup with my boyfriend. We had a cookout and it was a blast!!
It was so great to be able to enjoy life clean and sober!! Wow, sometimes the little blessings mean so much.
Yesterday, I dropped some classes so now I'm only going to school part-time. I'm going through a rough time in early sobriety now so I think I did the right thing. I think it will be better for me to focus on staying sober than have the stress of being a full-time college student on my shoulders. It was a *very* hard decision but I think it is for the best. And next semester, I will be back to full-time college and maybe the depression won't be there and I won't be struggling as much with raw emotions as I will have to face in my first few months.
I'm ready for the journey! Jump aboard!
Hope
It was so great to be able to enjoy life clean and sober!! Wow, sometimes the little blessings mean so much.
Yesterday, I dropped some classes so now I'm only going to school part-time. I'm going through a rough time in early sobriety now so I think I did the right thing. I think it will be better for me to focus on staying sober than have the stress of being a full-time college student on my shoulders. It was a *very* hard decision but I think it is for the best. And next semester, I will be back to full-time college and maybe the depression won't be there and I won't be struggling as much with raw emotions as I will have to face in my first few months.
I'm ready for the journey! Jump aboard!
Hope
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Awesome! It's great that you have the flexibility with your classes Hope.
They say sobriety is an inside job. Between the ears type of thing.
And it's nice to be able to make room for the work to be done.
And keep a close eye on the symptoms of depression, and do not hesitate to address those with your doctor. If they need to be treated and you omit to do so, it's almost a sure way to relapse. I was a walking relapse until I recognized that depression is serious business, and it has even more serious implications for a person trying to achieve sobriety.
Good going Hope!
They say sobriety is an inside job. Between the ears type of thing.
And it's nice to be able to make room for the work to be done.
And keep a close eye on the symptoms of depression, and do not hesitate to address those with your doctor. If they need to be treated and you omit to do so, it's almost a sure way to relapse. I was a walking relapse until I recognized that depression is serious business, and it has even more serious implications for a person trying to achieve sobriety.
Good going Hope!
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Great!
Hope,
It's good to hear you found something positive yesterday to help you through the rough times. There's nothing like knowing people love for and care for you.
Sounds like you have a good plan with school.
All the best,
Matt
It's good to hear you found something positive yesterday to help you through the rough times. There's nothing like knowing people love for and care for you.
Sounds like you have a good plan with school.
All the best,
Matt
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Hope--So glad to hear your evening went well. I was pretty worried about you! Keep hanging in there. Sounds like you made a good decision for yourself about school. College will always be there, but you will NEVER be able to do it right if you don't have sobriety. Hang in there!
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I'm still hanging in there. I slipped two days ago but this time I have a feeling things are going to be different this time. This is my journey and I won't quit the walk. ::sigh:: going through detox again. I want this to be my last detox! I am turning my will over to God.
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I LOVE THE NAME OF THIS THREAD!
thats pretty cool that you can drop classes like that. Im in high school full time and work part time so im exhausted ALL the time! lol. im kinda worried that im not giving my sobriety enough time but im sure itll be ok.
*prays that this is your last detox* :heart:
thats pretty cool that you can drop classes like that. Im in high school full time and work part time so im exhausted ALL the time! lol. im kinda worried that im not giving my sobriety enough time but im sure itll be ok.
*prays that this is your last detox* :heart:
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Oh my gosh, I was playing in the basement and look what I found!! It is so amazing to see where I was then and where I am now. How time flies. I remember when I had to drop all my classes because I was having trouble staying clean and was in a deep depression.
When I came here, I was so upset because I slipped at 79 days clean and then keep using after that. The first time I picked up again, I was so depressed that I stayed in bed for a week crying. I had a box of kleenex, and was wrapped under the sheets soaking my pillows with tears. I came here and everyone made me feel so much better. I picked myself back up from the shame and kept walking.
It hasn't always been easy and I feel flat on my face a few times throughout my steps but today I have 55 days and I know I'm doing better. Each day gets better and better. I am happy where I am now. The times I fell, reminded me of how far I could actually go. The reminders served me well. My GPA dropped after last semester but here I am back again full time college and I know I will do better. And if I don't accomplish anything else this semester, I will be successful because I WILL NOT PICK UP, NO MATTER WHAT. No matter how bad I feel, or what happens, or who slams the door in my face. No matter who breaks up with me or who hurts me, I WILL NOT PICK UP. Nothing is worth picking up over. I WILL RECOVER. I AM RECOVERING. This is my body, mind, soul, and I will take care of it FOREVER.
Thank you, my friends, for helping me dust myself back off and get back on the right track again. 55 days of miracles. I DID IT ONE DAY AT A TIME.
It felt good to take a trip down memory lane. It felt awesome to see where I have been and where I am going. Times do change.
Love,
Hope
When I came here, I was so upset because I slipped at 79 days clean and then keep using after that. The first time I picked up again, I was so depressed that I stayed in bed for a week crying. I had a box of kleenex, and was wrapped under the sheets soaking my pillows with tears. I came here and everyone made me feel so much better. I picked myself back up from the shame and kept walking.
It hasn't always been easy and I feel flat on my face a few times throughout my steps but today I have 55 days and I know I'm doing better. Each day gets better and better. I am happy where I am now. The times I fell, reminded me of how far I could actually go. The reminders served me well. My GPA dropped after last semester but here I am back again full time college and I know I will do better. And if I don't accomplish anything else this semester, I will be successful because I WILL NOT PICK UP, NO MATTER WHAT. No matter how bad I feel, or what happens, or who slams the door in my face. No matter who breaks up with me or who hurts me, I WILL NOT PICK UP. Nothing is worth picking up over. I WILL RECOVER. I AM RECOVERING. This is my body, mind, soul, and I will take care of it FOREVER.
Thank you, my friends, for helping me dust myself back off and get back on the right track again. 55 days of miracles. I DID IT ONE DAY AT A TIME.
It felt good to take a trip down memory lane. It felt awesome to see where I have been and where I am going. Times do change.
Love,
Hope
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I'm going to find a home in this thread. This will be my new thread. Maybe someone might even help me keep it going. If not, I'll see what I can do, LOL. I always have something up my sleeve, hehe.
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Tomorrow will be 56 days for me. Tonight is rough for me but I'm riding the waves instead of getting swept away in them. Tonight has been one of those 5 minutes at a time nights. I'll be sleeping soon after I get finished studying. I may turn in earlier and let what is going to happen tomorrow happen.
Hugs--
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Day 56
Here I am again, I made it through. Today I went to my classes
and I had an overall good day. I have so much work to do with
my classes and would like prayers that I will be able to handle
the work. I don't want to stay under stress. I'll probably work
until about 2 and get up at 7. Hopefully I'll be able to function
with 5 hours of sleep. More would be good but I need the
extra time to study and do well in school. I'm hanging in here!
Hope
Here I am again, I made it through. Today I went to my classes
and I had an overall good day. I have so much work to do with
my classes and would like prayers that I will be able to handle
the work. I don't want to stay under stress. I'll probably work
until about 2 and get up at 7. Hopefully I'll be able to function
with 5 hours of sleep. More would be good but I need the
extra time to study and do well in school. I'm hanging in here!
Hope
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There's always hope.
If a woman that use to hate my guts becuase I was dating her
daughter told me I can start my day over any time I want when
my ass was falling off. That gave me hopealwayz.
Her hubbie threw the big book at me at my first meeting just
incase I didn't get it.lol
I threw the book in the trunk but I kept coming back.
If a woman that use to hate my guts becuase I was dating her
daughter told me I can start my day over any time I want when
my ass was falling off. That gave me hopealwayz.
Her hubbie threw the big book at me at my first meeting just
incase I didn't get it.lol
I threw the book in the trunk but I kept coming back.
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God is doing for me what I can not do for myself. Turning my will over to God and being content knowing He is in control and everything that happens is exactly what is supposed to happen.
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Originally Posted by nutz
There's always hope.
If a woman that use to hate my guts becuase I was dating her
daughter told me I can start my day over any time I want when
my ass was falling off. That gave me hopealwayz.
Her hubbie threw the big book at me at my first meeting just
incase I didn't get it.lol
I threw the book in the trunk but I kept coming back.
If a woman that use to hate my guts becuase I was dating her
daughter told me I can start my day over any time I want when
my ass was falling off. That gave me hopealwayz.
Her hubbie threw the big book at me at my first meeting just
incase I didn't get it.lol
I threw the book in the trunk but I kept coming back.
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I agree whole heartedly Hope!!! Although at times it is hard to understand His reasons, but it is these times when we need to strengthen our Faith and hope 
It is very easy to remember God in the bad times, but not so easily remembered when things are going well!!! Which is why we should remind ourselves every day how much we have to be thankful for. Even if it is nothing more than hearing the song of a bird.
It is very easy to remember God in the bad times, but not so easily remembered when things are going well!!! Which is why we should remind ourselves every day how much we have to be thankful for. Even if it is nothing more than hearing the song of a bird.
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Philippians 4:19 reminds us: "My God shall supply all your needs."
God does always look out for us which is a blessing. He knows
what is best for us even though we may not be able to see it
at the moment. God always comes through with His promises.
It is truly amazing!
Day 57- !!
Hope
God does always look out for us which is a blessing. He knows
what is best for us even though we may not be able to see it
at the moment. God always comes through with His promises.
It is truly amazing!
Day 57- !!
Hope
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Be of good cheers becuase I've overcome the world.
I like this one becuase I use to suffer greatly from depression.
It also reminds me to get the hell out of the way, keep a happy heart
and watch the miracle happens.
You know how we get sometimes...always gotta be in control of everything.
oki doki, john lennon said Let It be.
God spoke to me from day one when I logges on the this site.
A message of "demand myself to be happy"
It was freanken harder than hard.
Especailly for the crap I was going thur.
I had nothing to be happy about.
It was the last god damn thing I wanted hear.
I learned this lessons years ago.
But never that I should demand of myself to do it.
Years ago, I drove up to the mountain, to the forrest and sat
on a rock. I was having a hell of a time, my world turned upside down.
Life as I known was never going to be the same again.
And I sure that heck didn't know what to do.
I told God that I would not move from the rock unless I get an answer.
It didn't matter if I died, I felt like dying anyways.
The good old lord is a funny dude !
I sat for hours and the answer I got was to BE happy,
which was the last damn thing I wanted to do.
And it would also be the hardest.
I did great reserch pretaining to happiness.
Talked to a great number of people.
I found happiness was whatever I wanted to be, such as
choosing a GOD of my understanding/HP.
The bottom line was just to BE HAPPY.
How would I get to BE HAPPY ?
Happiness requires nothing, it was just BEING.
I have it, I was born with it such as my disease.
It is the very same principle of the 12 steps that I
would apply to BE HAPPY.
I simply had to just ACCEPT IT.
It is also a daily reprieve that I should practice it.
It works if you work it.
Demanding myself to be happy is just a more descipline way.
And the last damn thing I want to do as always.
It's a assignment that my GOD/HP put in front of me.
Miracles upon miracles happened in my life already. I know that.
I'm being prepare for something great.
It would require great descipline from me to handle it, I imagine.
I like this one becuase I use to suffer greatly from depression.
It also reminds me to get the hell out of the way, keep a happy heart
and watch the miracle happens.
You know how we get sometimes...always gotta be in control of everything.
oki doki, john lennon said Let It be.
God spoke to me from day one when I logges on the this site.
A message of "demand myself to be happy"
It was freanken harder than hard.
Especailly for the crap I was going thur.
I had nothing to be happy about.
It was the last god damn thing I wanted hear.
I learned this lessons years ago.
But never that I should demand of myself to do it.
Years ago, I drove up to the mountain, to the forrest and sat
on a rock. I was having a hell of a time, my world turned upside down.
Life as I known was never going to be the same again.
And I sure that heck didn't know what to do.
I told God that I would not move from the rock unless I get an answer.
It didn't matter if I died, I felt like dying anyways.
The good old lord is a funny dude !
I sat for hours and the answer I got was to BE happy,
which was the last damn thing I wanted to do.
And it would also be the hardest.
I did great reserch pretaining to happiness.
Talked to a great number of people.
I found happiness was whatever I wanted to be, such as
choosing a GOD of my understanding/HP.
The bottom line was just to BE HAPPY.
How would I get to BE HAPPY ?
Happiness requires nothing, it was just BEING.
I have it, I was born with it such as my disease.
It is the very same principle of the 12 steps that I
would apply to BE HAPPY.
I simply had to just ACCEPT IT.
It is also a daily reprieve that I should practice it.
It works if you work it.
Demanding myself to be happy is just a more descipline way.
And the last damn thing I want to do as always.
It's a assignment that my GOD/HP put in front of me.
Miracles upon miracles happened in my life already. I know that.
I'm being prepare for something great.
It would require great descipline from me to handle it, I imagine.
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List of activities 1. Read a book
2. Take a walk
3. Play a musical instrument
4. Knit
5. Clean your closets
6. Research your genealogy
7. Cook a gourmet dinner
8. Write an article for your local newspaper
9. Go take some pictures
10. Clean the mildew in your bathroom
11. Start writing that book you've been planning
12. Plan a garden
13. Plant a garden
14. Play with a pet
15. Read to a child
16. Visit someone in an old folks' home
17. Watch a news special on TV
18. Set up a family budget
19. Make a web site
20. Take up archery
21. Exercise
22. Go to an online recovery meeting--SMART Recovery, AA, Sober Recovery
23. Surf the internet
24. Call your mom
25. Learn a foreign language
26. Write a poem
27. Play golf
28. Take a bubble bath
29. Draw
30. Teach a parakeet to whistle
31. Take a nap
32. Listen to music
33. Paint
34. Clean your desk
35. Start a stamp collection
36. Go window shopping
37. Browse in a book store
38. Go to an art gallery
39. Go for a drive
40. Paint a room
41. Watch the clouds go by
42. Play darts
43. Do target shooting
44. Do home repairs
45. Clean your garage
46. Sort your photographs
47. Make a scrapbook
48. Climb a tree
49. Plant a tree
50. Make marmalade
51. Make a list of things to do
52. Write a letter to the editor
53. Volunteer somewhere
54. Take a hike
55. Take a college class
56. Try yoga
57. Meditate
58. Get a massage
59. Make fruit smoothies
60. Bake cookies
61. Do a crossword puzzle
62. Go to the gym
63. Plant a color bowl
64. Sharpen your pruning tools
65. Change your engine oil
66. Sew
67. Groom your dog
68. Go see a play
69. Write a sonnet
70. Sort your recipes
71. Play solitaire
72. Go bird watching
73. Write a letter to a friend
74. Read poetry
75. Repot your house plants
76. Go to a movie
77. Mow your lawn
78. Take down your Christmas lights
79. Make pickles
80. Go jogging
81. Watch sitcoms
82. Plan menus for a diet
83. Do a jigsaw puzzle
84. Play chess
85. Write a country-western song
86. Watch a video
87. Go for a bike ride
88. Plant an herb garden
89. Start an online journal
90. Dye your hair
91. Go to a restaurant
92. Lift weights
93. Bake some bread
94. Learn a martial art
95. Polish the furniture
96. Make a flower arrangement
97. Read the newspaper
98. Start some seeds
99. Sort your magazines
100. Go to bed.
2. Take a walk
3. Play a musical instrument
4. Knit
5. Clean your closets
6. Research your genealogy
7. Cook a gourmet dinner
8. Write an article for your local newspaper
9. Go take some pictures
10. Clean the mildew in your bathroom
11. Start writing that book you've been planning
12. Plan a garden
13. Plant a garden
14. Play with a pet
15. Read to a child
16. Visit someone in an old folks' home
17. Watch a news special on TV
18. Set up a family budget
19. Make a web site
20. Take up archery
21. Exercise
22. Go to an online recovery meeting--SMART Recovery, AA, Sober Recovery
23. Surf the internet
24. Call your mom
25. Learn a foreign language
26. Write a poem
27. Play golf
28. Take a bubble bath
29. Draw
30. Teach a parakeet to whistle
31. Take a nap
32. Listen to music
33. Paint
34. Clean your desk
35. Start a stamp collection
36. Go window shopping
37. Browse in a book store
38. Go to an art gallery
39. Go for a drive
40. Paint a room
41. Watch the clouds go by
42. Play darts
43. Do target shooting
44. Do home repairs
45. Clean your garage
46. Sort your photographs
47. Make a scrapbook
48. Climb a tree
49. Plant a tree
50. Make marmalade
51. Make a list of things to do
52. Write a letter to the editor
53. Volunteer somewhere
54. Take a hike
55. Take a college class
56. Try yoga
57. Meditate
58. Get a massage
59. Make fruit smoothies
60. Bake cookies
61. Do a crossword puzzle
62. Go to the gym
63. Plant a color bowl
64. Sharpen your pruning tools
65. Change your engine oil
66. Sew
67. Groom your dog
68. Go see a play
69. Write a sonnet
70. Sort your recipes
71. Play solitaire
72. Go bird watching
73. Write a letter to a friend
74. Read poetry
75. Repot your house plants
76. Go to a movie
77. Mow your lawn
78. Take down your Christmas lights
79. Make pickles
80. Go jogging
81. Watch sitcoms
82. Plan menus for a diet
83. Do a jigsaw puzzle
84. Play chess
85. Write a country-western song
86. Watch a video
87. Go for a bike ride
88. Plant an herb garden
89. Start an online journal
90. Dye your hair
91. Go to a restaurant
92. Lift weights
93. Bake some bread
94. Learn a martial art
95. Polish the furniture
96. Make a flower arrangement
97. Read the newspaper
98. Start some seeds
99. Sort your magazines
100. Go to bed.
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