Thomas45

I've kept my no contact intact for 15 months, but today was unavoidable because I had to serve her divorce papers. The 2 minute factual conversation about what to do with the papers brought on such strong feelings of resentment that stayed with me for about 45 minutes afterwards. It serves as a reminder that I want nothing to do with her, which makes me both glad and sad: glad because I know for sure that I don't want to risk going down that road again, and sad because this is someone whom I used to trust completely and now I can't stand the sight of her.

Liveitwell

^ I know that feeling. It's your gut keeping you safe bc you know the truth about her. Glad you finally moved forward-you are on the right path.

Bekindalways

Both congratulations and condolences to you Thomas. This is such tough stuff.

I always feel compelled to thank anyone who leaves an addict. By doing this we choose life and choose to make the world a tiny bit better.

Healing, strength and peace to you Thomas. May this next chapter in your life bring you joy.

SmallButMighty

I totally empathize with the mad/sad cluster of feelings. Can be exhausting.

I haven't spoken with my ex in several months. I find that both liberating and upsetting at the same time. ( I am still a work in progress)

Good for you moving forward the way you are.

*hugs*

FireSprite

Wow, what a strong feeling of push & pull with those mixed emotions. Just because you know you're doing the right (& sometimes ONLY) thing you can do to save yourself doesn't mean it doesn't suck.

hopeful4

You will find much deserved peach in your life, and that is because you are taking these steps.

Hugs to you. You deserve happiness!

dandylion

hopeful......"peach"......lol.....

Freudian slip, perhaps?

dandylion

caretaker88

I kinda like "peach". It adds color and flavor to the feeling.

Chelle73

Peach is perfect

maia1234

Thomas,
I agree, I hurt for days, when I have interactions with axh. My dd22 is graduating from college in 2 weeks so will spend the weekend with him. Quite nervous of the bs he will try and pull. I hope for her sake he will be on his best bevavior.

When u have kids you are forever tied to them.

Hugs my friend, I hope the divorce is over quickly and is painless.