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I've been in a very short relationship with a beautiful man who is also an alcoholic. We lived together for a about 6 months but I had to make him leave. We have gone back and forth since he left and I've just recently told him no more... He just keeps lying to me about him not drinking. I feel so torn. I love this guy so very much but I can't do this anymore. But I feel like I've abandoned him can I help him from afar? I just don't know what to do
Michelle
I've been in a very short relationship with a beautiful man who is also an alcoholic. We lived together for a about 6 months but I had to make him leave. We have gone back and forth since he left and I've just recently told him no more... He just keeps lying to me about him not drinking. I feel so torn. I love this guy so very much but I can't do this anymore. But I feel like I've abandoned him can I help him from afar? I just don't know what to do
Michelle
Unfortunately the only person who can make him want to be sober is himself. If he was lying about his drinking while you were living together, he'll be even less likely to tell you the truth while three is some distance.
I think you made a very wise decision, but hanging around to try to help means you'll still be enmeshed which will just drag any pain out for longer than a clean break would. I'd suggest following your decision right through and stay away. If he wants help to get sober there is lots out there for him to access.
I think you made a very wise decision, but hanging around to try to help means you'll still be enmeshed which will just drag any pain out for longer than a clean break would. I'd suggest following your decision right through and stay away. If he wants help to get sober there is lots out there for him to access.
You cannot help him from afar from near from anywhere if he doesn't think he has a problem.
Hi
I've been in a very short relationship with a beautiful man who is also an alcoholic. We lived together for a about 6 months but I had to make him leave. We have gone back and forth since he left and I've just recently told him no more... He just keeps lying to me about him not drinking. I feel so torn. I love this guy so very much but I can't do this anymore. But I feel like I've abandoned him can I help him from afar? I just don't know what to do
Michelle
I've been in a very short relationship with a beautiful man who is also an alcoholic. We lived together for a about 6 months but I had to make him leave. We have gone back and forth since he left and I've just recently told him no more... He just keeps lying to me about him not drinking. I feel so torn. I love this guy so very much but I can't do this anymore. But I feel like I've abandoned him can I help him from afar? I just don't know what to do
Michelle
Hi, Chelle, and welcome to SR. I see that you're reading around the forum and have replied to another thread, which is great! That's exactly what I suggest that newcomers do as a way to educate themselves about alcoholism. Don't miss the stickied threads at the top of the page, either--there is a lot of good info there, including this thread: http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...l-problem.html
Keep on reading, keep on posting, and keep coming back as often as you need to.
Keep on reading, keep on posting, and keep coming back as often as you need to.
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Welcome ! Well, I loved my ex too, and I wanted to help him too-just wabted him to get better...but that was not my job , it was his - and he didn't want to (although I spent many years thinking it was my job!!). Please keep reading about alcoholism (as others have said, the stickies are a great place to start) and understanding the basics of addiction and codependence: the three C's are a good start-
You didn't Cause it, you can't Control it and you can't Cure it (I think I got those right !).
Hugs and peace to you!
You didn't Cause it, you can't Control it and you can't Cure it (I think I got those right !).
Hugs and peace to you!
My situation was similar, except you are very wise to leave at 6 months while I tried for 6 years! I also was accused of abandoning; hard to hear, even though I knew it wasn't true.
As a recovering alcoholic myself, nothing or no one could make me quit drinking until I could no longer stand to live that way anymore and I had to hurt quite a bit before I was ready to do something about it.
As a recovering alcoholic myself, nothing or no one could make me quit drinking until I could no longer stand to live that way anymore and I had to hurt quite a bit before I was ready to do something about it.
Please don't turn your 6 months into 6 years. If I were you, I would leave now before marriage and baby comes and then it will become much harder by 100 fold. If you are already feeling lied to, angry, resentment etc. you will feel it much more with every month or year that goes by without any change from him. The advice from the ppl, above are right. The change will have to happen from him, when he feels like he has to make a change to want to be sober. Unfortunately there is no telling when this might be. It can be soon (which probably is unlikely), it can be in years or it can be never. You need to ask yourself whether it is worth it for you to be sticking by with an alcoholic because it will mean that you have to stay strong, stronger than he is to hold together the broken pieces caused by an alcoholic. You need to (even though it's tough) be able to have open communication with him. The more you nag about the alcohol, the more he will lie to you about it. After all, he is trying to protect the thing he feels he NEEDS (alcohol) and an addicts mind will do things (as low as it may be) to protect their addiction. It's much healthier for the relationship to have a trusting, open communication. Knowing he will lie, you need to change your tactics of communicating with him. If you don't be prepared for a long, exhausting and stressful journey of paranoia. He is addicted to alcohol, you'll quickly be addicted to making sure he doesn't lie to you about drinking alcohol = recipe for unhappy, unhealthy relationship.
And this is just one aspect of the frustration that living with an alcoholic will give you. Not sure what your financial situation looks like right now but my advice is to never share bank accounts. You continue to work, have your money and savings. Both contribute to rent and bills 50%.
All in all, if I were to roll back time to the 6 month period (which at that point, I also had just moved in with my alcoholic boyfriend) I would have left then knowing what I know now. 8 years later, My alcoholic husband is still an alcoholic.
And this is just one aspect of the frustration that living with an alcoholic will give you. Not sure what your financial situation looks like right now but my advice is to never share bank accounts. You continue to work, have your money and savings. Both contribute to rent and bills 50%.
All in all, if I were to roll back time to the 6 month period (which at that point, I also had just moved in with my alcoholic boyfriend) I would have left then knowing what I know now. 8 years later, My alcoholic husband is still an alcoholic.
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Welcome Chelle. And congrats on the steps you have already taken and the boundaries you have set. We all know how very difficult this is when you are in love with an alcoholic. Many don't have the wisdom/courage/strength to do this.
I left my XABF when I realized he wouldn't seek help. It is probably the most difficult thing I have ever done and the best.
I left my XABF when I realized he wouldn't seek help. It is probably the most difficult thing I have ever done and the best.
you are not abandoning him......he was an alcoholic BEFORE you and remains the same. your "influence" in his life did not CAUSE any change - being together didn't fix it, living together didn't fix it, and leaving doesn't fix it. he IS as he WAS.
you are very wise to end things. his fealty remains to alcohol, with no exception. until HE makes the decision to truly accept he has a problem and then dedicate his LIFE to resolving that problem, what you see is what you get.
you are very wise to end things. his fealty remains to alcohol, with no exception. until HE makes the decision to truly accept he has a problem and then dedicate his LIFE to resolving that problem, what you see is what you get.
Chelle
At 6 months you haven´t yet seen how ugly this will become, please read the many threads of others who have had long term relationships with alcoholics. Lying about drinking is only the tip of the iceberg, soon you will realize that all basic norms for human interactions as you´ve known them have disappeared and you´re left to question your own sanity. Alcoholics pull all those close to them into profound suffering, even and especially when they are only trying to help.
I recently saw Leaving Las Vegas after breaking up with my ABf, a bit worried that it would trigger me, but I found it was a sugar-coated depiction of a relationship with an alcoholic - and that is considering that the A in the film has given up entirely on himself! I felt the year and a half I spend with my A was much, much more stressful than what the girl in the film goes through.
Please read as much as you can on this forum and try to internalize that it is true - his alcoholism WILL destroy you. You can´t bargain your way out of it, the longer you´re in contact with this guy, the more you will lose your sense of self and sink with him. The only thing you can do to help is get as far away from him as possible, perhaps - and this is very slight perhaps - that will eventually help him see that he has a problem.
At 6 months you haven´t yet seen how ugly this will become, please read the many threads of others who have had long term relationships with alcoholics. Lying about drinking is only the tip of the iceberg, soon you will realize that all basic norms for human interactions as you´ve known them have disappeared and you´re left to question your own sanity. Alcoholics pull all those close to them into profound suffering, even and especially when they are only trying to help.
I recently saw Leaving Las Vegas after breaking up with my ABf, a bit worried that it would trigger me, but I found it was a sugar-coated depiction of a relationship with an alcoholic - and that is considering that the A in the film has given up entirely on himself! I felt the year and a half I spend with my A was much, much more stressful than what the girl in the film goes through.
Please read as much as you can on this forum and try to internalize that it is true - his alcoholism WILL destroy you. You can´t bargain your way out of it, the longer you´re in contact with this guy, the more you will lose your sense of self and sink with him. The only thing you can do to help is get as far away from him as possible, perhaps - and this is very slight perhaps - that will eventually help him see that he has a problem.
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Wow thank you all
Thank you so much... You are all so wise and encouraging. Our relationship has been in total just over a year.... And it just hurts like hell to say goodbye to him... But I know it's the right thing to do I loved the comment of "he was, is etc" that REALLY struck me. I gave to stop feeling sorry for him and start looking out for myself .... What's crazy is we were bf/gf in our Late teens ( now early 40s) and it was his drinking that seperated us back then lol thank you again wonderful supportive people x I must stay strong
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you are not abandoning him......he was an alcoholic BEFORE you and remains the same. your "influence" in his life did not CAUSE any change - being together didn't fix it, living together didn't fix it, and leaving doesn't fix it. he IS as he WAS.
you are very wise to end things. his fealty remains to alcohol, with no exception. until HE makes the decision to truly accept he has a problem and then dedicate his LIFE to resolving that problem, what you see is what you get.
you are very wise to end things. his fealty remains to alcohol, with no exception. until HE makes the decision to truly accept he has a problem and then dedicate his LIFE to resolving that problem, what you see is what you get.
Chelle......for the record...for what it is worth....relationships that didn't work out the first time....statistically, almost NEVER do the next time around, either.....
I think that there is a certain nostalgia and romanticism surrounding "young love"......and that is often the plot of Hollywood movies.....
It sells movies...and, we love to watch them...but, they certainly don't represent the norm.....
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I think that there is a certain nostalgia and romanticism surrounding "young love"......and that is often the plot of Hollywood movies.....
It sells movies...and, we love to watch them...but, they certainly don't represent the norm.....
dandylion
Yep, it was the same for me, teen love - didn´t last - reunited in our 40s with fullblown alcoholism on his part. And looking back, he did drink a lot too the first time around, only it didn´t seem so bad because there was a lot of partying at that age. In that time I was probably the "nerdy" odd one out because I never drank myself.
Anyway, I understand it can be extra hard to disentangle yourself from someone who was a childhood sweetheart, you feel a special connection because you knew each other in the past and you don´t want to let go of the illusion that this was actually The One.
Anyway, I understand it can be extra hard to disentangle yourself from someone who was a childhood sweetheart, you feel a special connection because you knew each other in the past and you don´t want to let go of the illusion that this was actually The One.
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Yes there's def a little of that delusional " meant to be" factor.
I remember him pushing me into a wall when we had both been drinking back then too.... I'm a slow learner lol
You know even his MOTHER had someone warn me he would use and abuse me.... But I thought knew him better then his mum lmao! So many screaming red flags in hindsight
I remember him pushing me into a wall when we had both been drinking back then too.... I'm a slow learner lol
You know even his MOTHER had someone warn me he would use and abuse me.... But I thought knew him better then his mum lmao! So many screaming red flags in hindsight
Chelle, Ah yes, that damn "meant to be" factor. Been there to, just like you and Bluelily….
It sucks!
Oh! And as to the title of your post, I vote "RUN"! In the case of these weirdos "Meant to be" seems to be a synonym for "Licence to treat you like sh!t".
It sucks!
Oh! And as to the title of your post, I vote "RUN"! In the case of these weirdos "Meant to be" seems to be a synonym for "Licence to treat you like sh!t".
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Hmmmmm lol
Chelle, Yup. It's funny.... When it's not your life!
It's also "funny" how they keep reminding you of all those great things they did for you! He told me once that I should be more thankful that he took care of me while I had the flu, and how he cooked for me (with food he didn't pay a cent of), and blah blah blah.
Yes dear, you deserve a medal. You took care of me while I was sick! Isn't that an extraordiray thing to do when your partner is sick!
Come to think of it, he never paid much for food... Or anything else for that matter, because you know, poor poor him, he was out of a job... Again.
It's also "funny" how they keep reminding you of all those great things they did for you! He told me once that I should be more thankful that he took care of me while I had the flu, and how he cooked for me (with food he didn't pay a cent of), and blah blah blah.
Yes dear, you deserve a medal. You took care of me while I was sick! Isn't that an extraordiray thing to do when your partner is sick!
Come to think of it, he never paid much for food... Or anything else for that matter, because you know, poor poor him, he was out of a job... Again.
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Chelle, Yup. It's funny.... When it's not your life!
It's also "funny" how they keep reminding you of all those great things they did for you! He told me once that I should be more thankful that he took care of me while I had the flu, and how he cooked for me (with food he didn't pay a cent of), and blah blah blah.
Yes dear, you deserve a medal. You took care of me while I was sick! Isn't that an extraordiray thing to do when your partner is sick!
Come to think of it, he never paid much for food... Or anything else for that matter, because you know, poor poor him, he was out of a job... Again.
It's also "funny" how they keep reminding you of all those great things they did for you! He told me once that I should be more thankful that he took care of me while I had the flu, and how he cooked for me (with food he didn't pay a cent of), and blah blah blah.
Yes dear, you deserve a medal. You took care of me while I was sick! Isn't that an extraordiray thing to do when your partner is sick!
Come to think of it, he never paid much for food... Or anything else for that matter, because you know, poor poor him, he was out of a job... Again.
And there was never an apology for his awful behaviour.... Like it was just acceptable because he had been drinking. The more I step away and look at it I'm a little embarrassed that I "put up" with this lol he had not long been out of jail for a dui when we met again... What was I thinking lol
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