Desperate this time
Desperate this time
Back again, my SR friends.
In the past 2-3 months my ex and I sold our family house and I've moved into my own apt. We've been getting along ok, and figuring out our routine for co-parenting our son. A few weeks ago I had emergency surgery for an abscess, that left me physically weakened but with a bottle of T3s. On top of that, I've almost completed my police auxiliary training.
Throughout all of this, I've relapsed BADLY. I can't seem to go longer than two weeks without going back to the bottle. And then I abused my pain pills until they were gone. And my behaviour during my binges has gotten riskier - I've gone to work and training impaired, etc.
So far I've 'gotten away with things', but my relationships are suffering, my health is suffering, and my self-worth is almost gone. I feel like I've been hanging on by the thinnest of threads.
I think inpatient rehab is the only thing left for me to try. I don't care how much I have to pay, I'll do it. It's just a matter of telling my loved ones, tying up loose ends, and gritting through the next 2 weeks to be able to graduate from recruit training.
I was sober today, which was a struggle. I feel like I'm going to be glued to this website for the next while. Glad to be here and to have you guys to talk to.
In the past 2-3 months my ex and I sold our family house and I've moved into my own apt. We've been getting along ok, and figuring out our routine for co-parenting our son. A few weeks ago I had emergency surgery for an abscess, that left me physically weakened but with a bottle of T3s. On top of that, I've almost completed my police auxiliary training.
Throughout all of this, I've relapsed BADLY. I can't seem to go longer than two weeks without going back to the bottle. And then I abused my pain pills until they were gone. And my behaviour during my binges has gotten riskier - I've gone to work and training impaired, etc.
So far I've 'gotten away with things', but my relationships are suffering, my health is suffering, and my self-worth is almost gone. I feel like I've been hanging on by the thinnest of threads.
I think inpatient rehab is the only thing left for me to try. I don't care how much I have to pay, I'll do it. It's just a matter of telling my loved ones, tying up loose ends, and gritting through the next 2 weeks to be able to graduate from recruit training.
I was sober today, which was a struggle. I feel like I'm going to be glued to this website for the next while. Glad to be here and to have you guys to talk to.
Hello.
It took a deep, dark desperation to make me give in and give up. I thought things couldn't get worse, but they did. I hope you never have to revisit the depths I sank to. It was bad.
You've got things going for you that seem very positive. Something to live sober for.
I didn't have that luxury- it was me alone with a bottle.
Grab a hold of sobriety. With all you've got going on, make it a big part of your life. Even the biggest if necessary.
I'm glad to say I clawed my way out of addiction and everything changed for the better. It takes work. It is work, but so worth it and so are you.
I wish you the best.
It took a deep, dark desperation to make me give in and give up. I thought things couldn't get worse, but they did. I hope you never have to revisit the depths I sank to. It was bad.
You've got things going for you that seem very positive. Something to live sober for.
I didn't have that luxury- it was me alone with a bottle.
Grab a hold of sobriety. With all you've got going on, make it a big part of your life. Even the biggest if necessary.
I'm glad to say I clawed my way out of addiction and everything changed for the better. It takes work. It is work, but so worth it and so are you.
I wish you the best.
Thank you for the words of encouragement!
Day 2. Had an awful night sleep last night. I had full on sweats and nightmares. But hey, at least I'm not hungover this morning.
I've gone through acute withdrawal so many times that I'm familiar with all the symptoms. I think the worst for me is the sensitivity to sound. It seems to take the longest to gradually get better.
Day 2. Had an awful night sleep last night. I had full on sweats and nightmares. But hey, at least I'm not hungover this morning.
I've gone through acute withdrawal so many times that I'm familiar with all the symptoms. I think the worst for me is the sensitivity to sound. It seems to take the longest to gradually get better.
Welcome back, shortstop!
Rehab sounds like a great idea; it was like a jump-start into sobriety for me, but I had to be desperate before I'd do something to help me stop.
Remember that you never have to go through this again if you don't want to.
Rehab sounds like a great idea; it was like a jump-start into sobriety for me, but I had to be desperate before I'd do something to help me stop.
Remember that you never have to go through this again if you don't want to.
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