Karma40

Hi to all, today is day 6, just finished a 10 k, feeling positive but my AV is also very positive at the moment, trying to convince me I'm not an alcoholic, I KNOW I am, please remind me why I started this journey,

Venecia

Because you deserve a better life.

Anna

You know that your AV's agenda is to have alcohol destroy your life. When you hear it, let it go and keep your positive attitude about sobriety.

phlowing

Play the tape back. Something told you you had to stop drinking. Remember that "something"

Soberwolf

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...e-surfing.html

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html

Know you have us excellent job reaching out keep posting you'l forget about it soon enough

amyrose

If there isn't a problem, there is no need to obsess over drinking, thinking about drinking, the effects of drinking, how to justify drinking. No one in my life thinks I have a problem, and I would love to agree, but we all know inside ourselves the truth.

Upward2Enlightenment

Also play the tape forward, think about the consequences of drinking, how you will feel tomorrow.

Good job on the 10k

D122y

Kar,

If you can run a 10k....I understand that you can have trouble not drinking ifyou are mentally addicted....

You are not in any physical trouble...so you rationalize why not get drunk.

The brain craves the numbing of the booze...

I have some brain damage from my binge episodes that has reminded me for the last 10 months that I can't ever drink again...

Without that reminder I would be drunk right now...

Great job on staying clean w out needing the brain damage reminder.

thomas11

HI Karma, you'll erase all the hard work of that 10K if you choose to drink. Maybe reward yourself with a good meal?

Karma40

Thanks for all the support, I'm not going to drink,

least

Congrats on your sober time. Keep it up, it gets better.

CaseyW

Glad you checked back in and have made the right decision in staying on the path of sobriety. Also glad to see you join our class of March 2016 thread. Hope you'll become a regular participant there. I've found that being around others who are also in early recovery is a huge help for me.

Hawkeye13

Read what you posted just a few days ago--do you want that guy back?

"Sometimes it scares the crap out of me, when I realise what I'm actually capable of, I have a wonderful, loving wife, and two beautiful children, but yet, this weekend when they really needed me, I went drinking for 2 days with little thought for their pain, they went to see their little cousin who is terminally ill and has day's to live, when they returned I was gone, this is a new low for me,"

That's what continuing to drink will do, do more often, and do worse as time passes.
Stop now and stop for good or be ready for more and more "lows" to happen
in your life and to your family.

You, and they, deserve more--you can do it Karma

Dee74

Go back to drinking and you might never run another 10k, karma

you're doing well - the AV lies. always.

D

IvanMike

Why? - how about how you behave while using?

trust me, the lows will keep getting lower. every "bottom" has a trap door in it.

stay clean, it's worth it. the person you become is worth it.