zlhzlh

I'm at home by the Fire watching Cheltenham and my AV is extremely present. I feel like I've gone full circle and things are really hard again. I feel tired and dull and just want to have my own private party at home watching the races! Just wanting to pep things up, I know it's all BS and my pride won't let me, but just need to vent how I feel.

Venecia

The only thing drinking does reliably well is make everything worse.

Have a glass of water. Jump in the shower. Stop by the Weekenders forum and let folks know you could use some extra encouragement.

Just don't drink. (See first paragraph.)

ChloeRose63

Throw yourself a "party"...make all your favorite pig out foods...grab a gallon of your favorite ice cream...pop some popcorn...cook a dish that you truly enjoy...make it a fun time...forget the booze...that's no fun...if you are going to indulge...eat something indulgent! Chocolate cake, anyone?!

doggonecarl

If the races are making you want to drink, maybe you should turn them off.

Soberwolf

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...e-surfing.html

https://youtu.be/__0dNKJV0zo

CaseyW

How are you doing now, zlhzlh?

Play that tape through to the end, think about how that one drink is going to lead to two or three or ten and all the worst wreckage that drinking has caused you in the past. Glad you came in here and posted--you're in my thoughts and prayers...

thomas11

I've been watching our college national wrestling championships, I've had the occasional thought of running to the store. Not going to do it. What has helped me is that I've got more important things on the horizon and I won't achieve them being drunk. Hang in there, wish you the best.

zlhzlh

Casey, I'm ok .......had a strong coffee, still watching the races but AV has gone away x

zlhzlh

Thomas, you are so correct! I have played the tape forward...I'm not gonna let myself down.

firstymer

Way to fight the fight, zlhzlh. As powerful and irritating as AV can be, it ALWAYS subsides. And over time, it gets weaker and less frequent.

Excellent work. I am proud of you.

zlhzlh

Soberwolf, I have read the Urge Surfing piece, it's very helpful Thank you. The craving past and actually watching the Foxhunter race took my mind off drinking. The excitement has made me want to go out and do something!!! I am 4 months Sober on Sunday, I really really don't want to start all over again!

zlhzlh

To know people are out there listening, being strong , being that voice is amazing. Thank you

RedAndy

Glad to hear you managed to shut down the AV and definitely agree with you regarding the support on here.

Have a good and sober evening.

cabron

zlh, well done to, yet again, hold off the AV

We share the same sobriety date as Sun will be 4 months for me as well

Keep up the good work my friend

thomas11

I don't know how long you've been sober, but as you accumulate some sober time, its not nearly as bad. You're not missing out on a damn thing. I guarantee it.

zlhzlh

Thomas 4 months on Sunday (this time around) . I have been ok and not had the AV too much but the last week or so it's been around a bit !

zlhzlh

Cabron.....Thanks will look out for your post! Hope things going well for you.

Dee74

I'm glad you got through zlhzlh

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zlhzlh

Thanks Dee