About Me...not the AH
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About Me...not the AH
I read here often, but very rarely do I post. I just looked at my stats and I joined this site in 2005. Eleven years later and the only thing in my relationship that has changed is me. My AH has had 5+ clean years and he's gone less the 4 hours without using. I have been married for almost 22 years and I have finally reached the point where I love myself more than I love my addict. I know that life will not get better over night, I know that my AH will not leave my house, but what I do know is that I will no longer allow him to dictate my life. I have successfully played the victim for so many years that I failed to recognize that I had the tools to get out of this situation. We have a beautiful home, nice things, and they are all because I work to pay the bills - I don't need him to keep them. I have never left my AH because I have a very strong faith and I always struggled with the "till death do us part". I know that my God would not ask that I continue to live in such a stressful situation. I don't know when I will be free from my AH, but today I have hope that I will and I will teach my 3 beautiful daughters that no man determines their worth. Please keep my family in your prayers and take a moment to look in the mirror and say " I am worth it!" Addicts take so much from us that we quickly forget who we are and that there is more to life than this! Hopefully I will continue to post on this site and someday soon I will be able to tell you that I have once again found my peace.
Your recovery shines in so many ways and I think you will eventually find a way to leave the sadness behind.
The most important part of all this is that you know how to take care of yourself and you are doing it.
I am cheering you on and hope you will continue posting here.
Hugs
The most important part of all this is that you know how to take care of yourself and you are doing it.
I am cheering you on and hope you will continue posting here.
Hugs
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Join Date: Mar 2016
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your courage gives me strength... I hope that if it comes to that I will have the courage to do what is right for myself and my 3 baby's, I have always thought that staying a family was the best thing for the kids but it has become a full time job protecting them from what has been going on "behind the scenes".
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