ICanDoBetter

Beer would taste pretty damned good right about now. Friday's are especially tough to adjust to, as I was so accustomed even before my drinking go out of hand to enjoying a few on Friday after a long week.

I'm not going to drink today ... But I can't deny that I'm thinking of how refreshing and good one would taste this evening.

Bird615

And then? What comes next?

I hear you, though. I still get those thoughts, but less and less.
Playing that whole tape all the way through is what works for me.

IvanMike

...not to mention the throwing up and the fights, the loss of self-respect, the degradation, the poor choices, the isolation, broken promises, loss of integrity, etc....

sounds great....

you deserve better.

ICanDoBetter

I agree ... There's a case in the fridge (husbands) and I know there is no way it would be just one. I suppose I'm mourning the taste at the moment ... First real urge I've had beyond a second-long thought. I have a few hours til I'm home for it to go away :-).

I suppose at the moment I'm also mourning the buzz... The relaxation that arises when you get the buzz. And admittedly wishing there were an alternative for achieving that but I realize that isn't the right answer either.

ICanDoBetter

And today I will not drink. Despite an urge, I stand firm in that commitment.

spadge

Well done hun Ive not had any cravings as yet but I am sure it will happen at some point. Don't go there cos we know that just the one ends up being a hell of a lot more n would u want to go back to day one again!!! xxx

saoutchik

Friday evenings are really tough in early recovery ICDB. I found it helpful to arrange for some sort of distraction, a walk, a movie even (occasionally) household chores to take my mind off the cravings.

Posting here and saying how you feel is so much better than drinking and then posting about a relapse - it shows you are serious and doing the right things so well done for that

The good news is that after a while they are not so hard to stay sober

least

The urge to drink gets less and less the longer you're sober.

ICanDoBetter

To channel my mother's spirit, if I drink today, I cannot say it has been 24 days since my last drink... And I don't want to let her down <3

amyrose

Excellent post! It's one thing to be honest and choose sobriety, and another to lie about cravings and missing even unhealthy things from the past. Hey - if I could have one glass of wine or one martini, I wouldn't be here. I keep coming back to "one is too many and ten is never enough". That sums it up for me.

ScottFromWI

I used to tell myself that too. Yeah right...I drank 12 beers at a time because of the "taste". ;-) We forget about the taste in our mouths the next morning. Or the taste of the bile we vomit up if we drank WAY too much and couldn't stomach any food the next day.

Coming here was a great decision- talking these things out are always a better alternative than following through of course, or just trying to white-knuckle your way thorough.

AnvilheadII

I've turned into a Canada Dry Ginger Ale junkie.....man that stuff is good! TRY IT!

zlhzlh

Love any thing with ginger...love the kick !

zlhzlh

When I said I love anything with Ginger.....I meant the drink variety ha!

Mrskw

Well done in standing your ground in your commitment. I know exactly what you mean. Remember not to listen to that AV voice; mine tells me it'll just be one but you're right... it never is.

Continue to be strong; you're doing great!

ICanDoBetter

ha! That made me lol!

ICanDoBetter

Oh I just had a brilliant idea! When I get home I'm going to make a cup of coffee and add a scoop of the kids' hot cocoa mix to it. Done deal ... No more urge for a beer :-)

mav

Sounds like a plan. Enjoy.

ICanDoBetter

Oh it's yummy - and the little marshmallows are a fun twist 😂

Dee74

Yep, think through that beer to the inevitable consequences. There's no such thing as 'just one beer' for us.

Friday was my night too...It took me a few weeks to get past feeling really antsy, even angry on a Friday night - but I did.

You will too