March 3, 2016 Day 1
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March 3, 2016 Day 1
Hello everyone. I can't even begin to count how many Day 1s I've had. All I know is that if I don't stop, I will lose everything that is important to me. The worst things for me on Day 1 are the anxiety, remorse, confusion over what I may or may not have done. I'm embarking on the 100 day challenge. I'm one who can't process "forever", but I know I can do this for 100 days. The encouraging words I found here today are helping me through. Thanks to everyone.
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Hello and welcome.
I had hundreds of day ones and did lose everything important to me.
Even with all the anxiety, guilt and remorse I still drank.
I could never set a benchmark like a hundred days. That's way too far in the future.
I can handle one day. I've put those one days together now for over five years.
Who would have thought? I was a bad drunk and drank every way possible; Binge, on weekends and finally every day.
I set goals, a week, a month and on weekends. You know what the result was even when I achieved these goals? I drank. And in no time I was back up to speed. By setting these goals I was merely postponing the obvious-I'm an alcoholic and once I start drinking the outcome was the same. Back to bingeing back and then to every day.
I didn't drink today, and for that I am grateful. I'll try again tomorrow. One day isn't so bad. I'm realistic, once I start I can not control my drinking. So I don't set goals licking my chops in anticipation for that day I can drink again.
Just today.
I had hundreds of day ones and did lose everything important to me.
Even with all the anxiety, guilt and remorse I still drank.
I could never set a benchmark like a hundred days. That's way too far in the future.
I can handle one day. I've put those one days together now for over five years.
Who would have thought? I was a bad drunk and drank every way possible; Binge, on weekends and finally every day.
I set goals, a week, a month and on weekends. You know what the result was even when I achieved these goals? I drank. And in no time I was back up to speed. By setting these goals I was merely postponing the obvious-I'm an alcoholic and once I start drinking the outcome was the same. Back to bingeing back and then to every day.
I didn't drink today, and for that I am grateful. I'll try again tomorrow. One day isn't so bad. I'm realistic, once I start I can not control my drinking. So I don't set goals licking my chops in anticipation for that day I can drink again.
Just today.
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