Im back...For good
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Join Date: Sep 2015
Location: Manhattan, New York
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Im back...For good
Hey everyone!
Im back again after a couple of months of being on and off the wagon.
I didnt want to come back until I was really ready this time.
I had a revelation the other day and really took a look at myself as a whole. How Ive changed through out the years, how the old "Kirky" was and how I am now.
And I miss her. I miss her alot. She was a really cool person. Someone people enjoyed and looked up to. Someone I was proud to be.
I wanna be her again.
I spoke with a counselor a week ago and he really explained to me how I was abusing alcohol and what it was doing to me mentally, physically and emotionally.
I hate that I let it bring me as far as it did.
I am currently looking into AA meetings and finding new people to surround myself with that live this sober lifestyle.
My good friends know what I am doing and are fully supportive.
Same as my family and my boyfriend.
My one fear is that this feeling and strength will leave me.
Im really praying this time. Ive got a bit of time under my belt and I still have no desire whatsoever.
Im a happier me and I want to keep it that way.
Im back again after a couple of months of being on and off the wagon.
I didnt want to come back until I was really ready this time.
I had a revelation the other day and really took a look at myself as a whole. How Ive changed through out the years, how the old "Kirky" was and how I am now.
And I miss her. I miss her alot. She was a really cool person. Someone people enjoyed and looked up to. Someone I was proud to be.
I wanna be her again.
I spoke with a counselor a week ago and he really explained to me how I was abusing alcohol and what it was doing to me mentally, physically and emotionally.
I hate that I let it bring me as far as it did.
I am currently looking into AA meetings and finding new people to surround myself with that live this sober lifestyle.
My good friends know what I am doing and are fully supportive.
Same as my family and my boyfriend.
My one fear is that this feeling and strength will leave me.
Im really praying this time. Ive got a bit of time under my belt and I still have no desire whatsoever.
Im a happier me and I want to keep it that way.
You will be able to stay sober when you want to be sober more than you want to drink. 
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Join Date: Jun 2015
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Welcome back!
another poster was mentioning today that he had an awakening that launched him into recovery and I mentioned to him that I had the same experience out of nowhere.
All I can say is "Carpe Diem"..... while you have this wave of strength. It will give you muscles to deal with later days when your strength wanes....
Best wishes
Jonathan
another poster was mentioning today that he had an awakening that launched him into recovery and I mentioned to him that I had the same experience out of nowhere.
All I can say is "Carpe Diem"..... while you have this wave of strength. It will give you muscles to deal with later days when your strength wanes....
Best wishes
Jonathan
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Join Date: Sep 2015
Location: Manhattan, New York
Posts: 83
Thanks so much everyone for the kind words. I'll be coming here alot when Im feeling low but I havent felt this good in such a long time. Im really hopeful for my future. Its going to be a extremely sweet life from this sobriety.
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