The more I learn about alcoholism
The more I learn about alcoholism
The more I understand what is happening to me. I now recognise my relapse at 3 months was possibly due to PAWS, I really really did feel I was going crazy at that time and I'll be frank, it scared me. My head was a complete mess, had obsessive thoughts and repetitive thinking, my thoughts were so loud. Urgh.
I guess im sharing this as I think if I had understood what was happening at the time I may not of relapsed, who knows?
I now have another 3 months under my belt and I am very mindful this time around of recognising my triggers, how I feel and how to help myself when things get tough. I can now see why others say it is vital to have an action plan. Keeping a journal and counselling, and AA, my sponsor is really helping.
I think its important to educate yourself as much as you can on the nature of addiction, and have that all important action plan in place if you need it, keep talking and sharing how you feel, people do get it.
Today Im doing ok! Im sober Day 94 tomorrow, Im almost past my last length of sobriety I so want to get there and beyond Keeping it in the day.
I guess im sharing this as I think if I had understood what was happening at the time I may not of relapsed, who knows?
I now have another 3 months under my belt and I am very mindful this time around of recognising my triggers, how I feel and how to help myself when things get tough. I can now see why others say it is vital to have an action plan. Keeping a journal and counselling, and AA, my sponsor is really helping.
I think its important to educate yourself as much as you can on the nature of addiction, and have that all important action plan in place if you need it, keep talking and sharing how you feel, people do get it.
Today Im doing ok! Im sober Day 94 tomorrow, Im almost past my last length of sobriety I so want to get there and beyond Keeping it in the day.
It is indeed a journey, I know now that I cant rush sobriety and that anything can happen, cravings and triggers can hit me totally unawares but knowing this and accepting that this can happen helps. There is a sense of accomplishment when you have gotten through a bad day sober and I truly believe this is because of awareness and understanding of the nature of the illness.
Anyways I cant get to a meeting at the mo, so sharing on here helps too!
I totally agree with one caveat. Education is essential for those who want to get sober but education alone will not keep you sober.
I went through a 4 month high end treatment program. I was a walking encyclopedia on addiction cause and effect. The problem was I was not willing to admit I could never drink like other people.
I stayed sober for quite awhile but eventually drank again. The AV worked on me for years and finally won.
It was only when I admitted defeat and became willing to make systemic changes in my life did the obsession and compulsion vanish.
I went through a 4 month high end treatment program. I was a walking encyclopedia on addiction cause and effect. The problem was I was not willing to admit I could never drink like other people.
I stayed sober for quite awhile but eventually drank again. The AV worked on me for years and finally won.
It was only when I admitted defeat and became willing to make systemic changes in my life did the obsession and compulsion vanish.
I totally agree with one caveat. Education is essential for those who want to get sober but education alone will not keep you sober.
I went through a 4 month high end treatment program. I was a walking encyclopedia on addiction cause and effect. The problem was I was not willing to admit I could never drink like other people.
I stayed sober for quite awhile but eventually drank again. The AV worked on me for years and finally won.
It was only when I admitted defeat and became willing to make systemic changes in my life did the obsession and compulsion vanish.
I went through a 4 month high end treatment program. I was a walking encyclopedia on addiction cause and effect. The problem was I was not willing to admit I could never drink like other people.
I stayed sober for quite awhile but eventually drank again. The AV worked on me for years and finally won.
It was only when I admitted defeat and became willing to make systemic changes in my life did the obsession and compulsion vanish.
It took me almost losing it all including my life to embrace AA, work the steps and form a relationship with a higher power and admit I was just a garden variety drunk
It is indeed a journey, I know now that I cant rush sobriety and that anything can happen, cravings and triggers can hit me totally unawares but knowing this and accepting that this can happen helps. There is a sense of accomplishment when you have gotten through a bad day sober and I truly believe this is because of awareness and understanding of the nature of the illness.
My first go around with sobriety which I'm referring to did not include AA because at the time I believed I was above AA. I felt i was a special alcoholic and was not like those people.
It took me almost losing it all including my life to embrace AA, work the steps and form a relationship with a higher power and admit I was just a garden variety drunk
It took me almost losing it all including my life to embrace AA, work the steps and form a relationship with a higher power and admit I was just a garden variety drunk
This is so very true. I think it's a journey that happens when you learn something and move forward and quickly realize how much more there is to learn. The sense of accomplishment for getting through a tough day sober, is what will help you build your recovery time. I'm glad you've taken action talking to your dr. That sounds very positive.
Its horrible eh? So confusing! Hopefully now you know why you feel an emotional wreck your better equipped to deal with it x If you havent a plan, time to make one, if you've got one in place use it!! Hope these feelings pass soon for you x x ((hugs))
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