Saturday Night
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Saturday Night
Hi all,
My name for the sake of this board is 'Eternal'. I am a 23 year old student at a local tech college in my area. I lost my mother when i was 15 and can't remember a stretch of sobriety lasting more than a month or two ever since. Marijuana and Alcohol have been my go-to "medications".
I have always admitted that I have a problem and am an addict, but my damn defensive mechanisms, or 'diseased brain' will not let me stop. I am currently making the absolute best decisions of my life when it comes to getting good grades and making good life decisions, except for the 4-8 beers i drink almost every night, and the weed i smoke the couple days following my visits with my probation officer. I get tested monthly by my probation officer, and my college randomly tests every semester, but i still risk it anyways.... risky i know. but my brain is almost wired to need this stuff in my life.
I was once 5'4 and 120 pounds, lifting regularly. I am now 180 pounds and waking up hungover on almost a daily basis. I have just recently admitted myself into an intensive outpatient rehab center (voluntarily) but i felt like i could use some extra motivation on a forum. So here i am. Needing help before i F up what i have going for me.
/Eternal
My name for the sake of this board is 'Eternal'. I am a 23 year old student at a local tech college in my area. I lost my mother when i was 15 and can't remember a stretch of sobriety lasting more than a month or two ever since. Marijuana and Alcohol have been my go-to "medications".
I have always admitted that I have a problem and am an addict, but my damn defensive mechanisms, or 'diseased brain' will not let me stop. I am currently making the absolute best decisions of my life when it comes to getting good grades and making good life decisions, except for the 4-8 beers i drink almost every night, and the weed i smoke the couple days following my visits with my probation officer. I get tested monthly by my probation officer, and my college randomly tests every semester, but i still risk it anyways.... risky i know. but my brain is almost wired to need this stuff in my life.
I was once 5'4 and 120 pounds, lifting regularly. I am now 180 pounds and waking up hungover on almost a daily basis. I have just recently admitted myself into an intensive outpatient rehab center (voluntarily) but i felt like i could use some extra motivation on a forum. So here i am. Needing help before i F up what i have going for me.
/Eternal
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