Finallygrownup

Been thinking a lot about my dad. He was a great man but also an alcoholic. Drinking ruined his life and his potential. When he quit drinking it was too late for him. He was ill with copd and died 2009. I guess I was just thinking that my dad would have loved SR. I loved my dad but spent a lot of time angry with him because of his behaviours and actions. I feel like I now understand more and am sorry I can't share that with him.

Anyway, on day 24 now myself and just feeling reflective and wanted to share. Thanks for listening.

courage2

I understand.

I think it's really natural in early recovery to do a lot of reflecting on the damage done by alcohol in our lives. It's painful but probably part of healing.

least

Congrats on 24 days sober!

Soberwolf

24 days is great

Anna

I don't think it's morbid, I think it's simply living and learning. You feel like you can understand your Dad more now, because of your perspective and your situation. At the time, your feelings towards your Dad were justified.

Great job on Day 24.

Nowsthetime

Hello:

I believe that it is good for you to face and deal with these feelings. I know that for me it was imperative for me to process buried feelings I order to heal.

Not morbid at all!!!

You are not alone. Lean on us.

stevepearce

Congratulation on 24 days ! Yeah my father was an alcoholic. He started to isolate himself from us when I was about 10. It effected me hugely and I'm only now as I'm coming out of the other end of 25 years drinking beginning to get a better perspective on it and not see myself as the victim in it all. I guess it's called growing up. Well I am only 51 !

bluedog97

I lost my father in 04. He too was an alcoholic and had emphazema. His death was very hard on me. I think what you're feeling is normal. I don't want to live out my life never getting a handle on the problem. I think he would want that too.

Dee74

I'm sorry for your loss finallygrownup - but I think your Dad would be proud of you being here

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nova84

Congratulations on 24 days FGU. Thank you for sharing such a personal reflection...very moving. Wishing you well on your recovery journey x

ccam1973

Congrats on 24 days Finallygrownup. I think your dad would be proud of you.

Keep up the good work. Just remember to lean on this community as much as you need.

Pondlady

Finallygrownup, I lost my Dad on the first of this month. He too, was an alcoholic, as was his father. His father never stopped and his later years were pretty sad. My father stopped in 1976 and lived a full, rich life, as a grandparent, father, friend and husband. It was he, who encouraged me to stop drinking, almost four years ago.....saying by the time, we think we should stop, it's several years past the point!

It's been a tough 10 days and I've been around a lot of alcohol , as the funeral was planned. I honored my father with my continued sobriety......I think your Dad would be very proud of you!

Finallygrownup

Thank you for all your kind words. Day 25 and feeling good !!!!