vendetta

I just started drinking. My AV is going nuts. Very ashamed. I should have called somebody.

sugarbear1

What are you going to do now? Pour it out or continue? This is a progressive thing and everything will get worse, if not today, eventually.

I suggest dumping it all out and taking a nap. Get up and eat well and drink lots of water.

You CAN do this!!!!!

least

You can stop drinking now. Pour out what's left, drink some water, and get serious about getting sober this time.

illi1111

Hi Vendetta-

Please stop drinking. Pour the rest out. Don't be ashamed the AV thrives on it. Make the call and move on. It happens so don't beat yourself up. You can do this!
((Hug))

vendetta

Once I start it's so hard to stop. Even though I know it's what I need to do. I have numbers to call from AA but I need to retrain myself to call before I start drinking.

sugarbear1

WE drink, we are alcoholics. Try NOT drinking, hun. you can do this!

least

Yes, it is hard to stop, but it can be done. Pour out the rest and stop drinking now. The longer you drink, the harder it is to stop.

Hawkeye13

Just stop vendetta--aren't you tired of this cycle?
Don't you want freedom and peace?
If you stop now, you can be relatively OK by tomorrow morning
but if you keep it going it will be days to feel OK.

Just dump it, drink some water, and get serious about caring for yourself.

nova84

Please don't feel ashamed vendetta...just do what you know you must to regain control. Wishing you well 💜

PurpleKnight

It's difficult, but it's not impossible, pour the rest out and draw a line under drinking today!!

You can do this!!

vendetta

I do want freedom and peace. I just don't know how to want it for myself. I need to find something that gives me strength. The thing I feel strongest about right now is a want for family. Before I drank I thought how bad I want a family. And I told myself if I take this drink it will never happen. Yet I still took the drink.

I feel like I should call the sponsor. But I also feel like it's a understood thing you have to call before you take that first drink not after.

ScottFromWI

Call now...this is exactly what the numbers are available for.

Wanting peace and freedom and a family are fantastic goals, but none of them are attainable until you stop drinking. That needs to be your only goal right now....call the numbers, do whatever it takes to stop.

vendetta

Ok I'll call. My AV is just telling me if I call before I drink and it doesn't work then I'm letting them down. If i call after I drink then I've already let them down.

ScottFromWI

Don't listen to your AV, it is lying. Put down the drink and pick up the phone.

FreeOwl

you've only let yourself down.

Now you have two choices;

Continue letting yourself down.

Or

Stop letting yourself down and start supporting yourself by acting in the direction of sobriety.

Pour the alcohol out, call your sponsor, start drinking water, and stop this nonsense.

2muchpain

They'll understand what your going through. IMO, the last thing you should do right now is think about it. Just call. John

Aellyce

And if you don't call and continue to drink, then next time the same..., you will let yourself down worse and worse, drifting further away from your dreams and goals on each occasion.

My sober journey with the help of SR started just like this. I was still drinking, not taking it seriously, not making efforts to even start looking into what getting sober entails. It took far too many false starts by the time I finally listened and put down the drink on the way to getting wasted after starting drinking and a thread here. You can do it, too, and start recovery now, no need to wait for Day 1 or anything. There is really nothing we learn or gain from repeating this over and over and a lot that can be lost before we realize.

Soberwolf

Ring the number Vendetta I spent 3 months doing this before I started reaching out i found it crazy to call another alcoholic and say I felt like drinking I thought I can't do that

You can Vendetta its called support & alcoholics are the only people on earth who get this

You can so do this bud pour out any remaining alcohol & drink water

Anna

Vendetta, you can pull yourself out of this right now.

You can fulfill the dreams you have for your life, but stopping drinking is the only way to manage that. Please check in and let us know how you are doing.

Thumpalumpacus

You know what you have to do. You know what will happen if you don't do it.

If you think anyone else will look down on you for a lapse -- and I doubt they will -- think about how you will feel about yourself tomorrow morning.