maverickspoint

I've been on and off here a few times now. Each time I come back I make myself promises and build new strength but eventually that voice inside my head says "Hey, you're feeling strong again and I know you can handle a drink, make it manageable, moderate"
I started drinking again on the 17th of Jan and have been drinking hard ever since, up until Feb 4th. Last night I spent 4 hours at the hospital having tests because I'd pushed my body too hard. I won't go into details but it really scared me and I genuinely feel like it was a turning point. I turned 33 Wed just gone and superstitiously I've always felt 33 would be my life changing year. So my official sobriety date is 05/02/16 and I will never drink again.
This forum has often been a great help to me and when I've drank again I've often felt shamed of letting people here down, especially the ones I tried to give advice to.
I feel ready this time, it's different. Time will prove that. Thanks to everyone on here and strength to you with your own battles.

Soberwolf

Good job MavericksPoint please reach out for support whenever you need you don't have to do this alone don't think your letting anyone down your not this is your recovery and it matters

If you ever want to talk send a pm whenever you want you can do this



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SoberLife90

May 2nd? Or February 5th? You could be dead by the time May comes around.

saoutchik

Steady on SoberLife

Hi maverickspoint , congratulations on choosing to quit. It is really hard accepting that we cannot be moderate drinkers anymore but if, when you think that a drink would be a good idea, you do what Dee calls "play the tape" ie think where that first drink will lead to it reinforces the desire to stop

Good luck

Soberween

I think in the UK they do their dates in a different order than in the U.S....."day of month/month/year"

Soberween

I think in the UK they do their dates in a different order than in the U.S....."day of month/month/year." Regardless, good decision MavericksPoint! Now is the time. There may not be a next time if you continue down the path you are on. We are rooting for you!!

doggonecarl

Not if you don't do something different this time. Whatever you was doing for recovery wasn't working. So don't repeat those mistakes. We alcoholics have a way of forgetting what prompted the vow of sobriety. Put a program of recovery in place while your epiphany carries some weight.

Delilah1

Glad you are back, and hopefully you are doing ok. Dee posted 101 reasons for recovery (or some similar title) again yesterday, it was a good read.

You can also check his link about plans, I know when I have gotten lax with my plan in the past is when I fell apart.

❤️Delilah

mav

Hey MP. Good luck - you can do this. Have you started work on a plan?

maverickspoint

UK date format, 5th of February. I'm already committed.

maverickspoint

Thanks everyone. I am working out a plan so I can't ever convince myself to go back and although it may be false confidence I just feel so different about it this time.

Hevyn

I'm so glad to see you, maverickspoint. We do have to be ready. I wish it hadn't taken me so long, as I did further damage while convincing myself to stop. We are all with you and want to help. You can do it.

Anna

Welcome back, Maverickspoint,

Make this life changing moment work for you. It sounds like you're ready to do the work. I'm glad you're back.

IfYouCanDream

Good luck!

Plan is essential to my recovery and has saved me many times. When cravings come it's easy to forget what to do.

least

I hope you are successful this time.

PurpleKnight

Acceptance that alcohol was no longer working in my life was my foundation, no matter how long I'd been abstinent, alcohol was no longer an option, I was neither cured, or could moderate, one drink sure may be alright on the first night, but gradually things would spiral as bad as ever eventually.

You can do this, but take alcohol off the table, I continued to do the same thing, and expected a different outcome for a long time, don't go round that merry-go-round any longer, draw a final line under alcohol and write a new future chapter to your life!!

Jsbodhi

I turned 33 in jan and I think it'll be a life changing year for me too.
Best wishes xo

maverickspoint

Thanks again everyone. I slept for almost 15 hours last night, sweating and getting aches and pains but I know I'm healing up now. Onwards and upwards :-)

Dropsie

Like many here, I wish I had quit at 33, but better late than never.

The key for me was to accept at an emotional level that I don't want to drink ever again.

My choice, but once I made that choice, I am committed to it -- Never Quit the Decision.

Then comes a lot more hard work, but without acceptance, no amount of hard work helps.

I am proud to know you. You got this.

FarToGo

Welcome back. We'd none of us (or not many) be able to give advice if we thought we were perfect or infallible, we're not. We're all just trying for a better life, same as you.
Give it all you've got and get back involved in SR.
xx