30 days....my story
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30 days....my story
Hi All,
I shared my story 30 days ago. My name is Mike. I am a husband and father in my late 30s. I have been drinking excessively since 15. The past two years it took on a whole new level and I rarely was so we for more than a day. I was consuming a large amount of vodka daily along with tequila, fireball and occasional absinth. It was out of hand.
Over the last 6 months of last year I started buying two airplane bottles of fireball everytime I want to the liquor store as a "ride home treat." I knew that was wrong and I was taking things to a dangerous place.
One night 31 days ago I made a huge mistake and was incredibly lucky not to get my second dui. It was a wake up call that I probably didn't deserve without consequences but thus far I've made the most of it.
I've done so many things I'm ashamed of and I have a lot of work to do to become the person I'd like to be. For now, I'm a far better father and husband than I have ever been before. I attend CBT counseling weekly and read SR every night. I want to thank everyone who posts here as your wisdom and stories give me strength.
I don't know where I'm going but I know I don't want to go back to the way things were. 30 days is the second longest I've ever gone without drinking and it has taught me that sobriety, when wanted, is so much better and so so much easier to manage day to day than alcoholism ever could be.
I wish you all nothing but the best and again, THANK YOU!
Mike
I shared my story 30 days ago. My name is Mike. I am a husband and father in my late 30s. I have been drinking excessively since 15. The past two years it took on a whole new level and I rarely was so we for more than a day. I was consuming a large amount of vodka daily along with tequila, fireball and occasional absinth. It was out of hand.
Over the last 6 months of last year I started buying two airplane bottles of fireball everytime I want to the liquor store as a "ride home treat." I knew that was wrong and I was taking things to a dangerous place.
One night 31 days ago I made a huge mistake and was incredibly lucky not to get my second dui. It was a wake up call that I probably didn't deserve without consequences but thus far I've made the most of it.
I've done so many things I'm ashamed of and I have a lot of work to do to become the person I'd like to be. For now, I'm a far better father and husband than I have ever been before. I attend CBT counseling weekly and read SR every night. I want to thank everyone who posts here as your wisdom and stories give me strength.
I don't know where I'm going but I know I don't want to go back to the way things were. 30 days is the second longest I've ever gone without drinking and it has taught me that sobriety, when wanted, is so much better and so so much easier to manage day to day than alcoholism ever could be.
I wish you all nothing but the best and again, THANK YOU!
Mike
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I think my previous longest streak was 68 days. That was in response to a dui I got several years ago. This time I'm a little older and have really had enough of being sick and tired all the time.
And that's just 30 days Mike; you'll have your ups and downs but hold firm because long-term sobriety brings rewards you haven't even thought of.
way to go, Mike!
what jumped out at me in your posts is that these 30 days started in response to an intense event, as did your previous 68 days.
it might be helpful to you to take a good look at whether bad events in the past will be enough to deter you from picking up again when the memory fades of how scary that was.
if not (and going back after 68 days might just indicate that a real bad event wore thin)....then what?
what jumped out at me in your posts is that these 30 days started in response to an intense event, as did your previous 68 days.
it might be helpful to you to take a good look at whether bad events in the past will be enough to deter you from picking up again when the memory fades of how scary that was.
if not (and going back after 68 days might just indicate that a real bad event wore thin)....then what?
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