csaw1112

Jsbodhi

No way!! February is gonna be awesome.
You should join me in having a great February in which we accomplish our goals and take care of ourselves

csaw1112

I agree. Just realized i didn't spell february correctly. I deserve to die.

Jsbodhi

Well if spelling February is your worst sin of the day you're doing well!

csaw1112

I spelled May wrong this morning.

Dee74

This can be your month csaw - if you're prepared to work for it?

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csaw1112

I cant seem to find anything to replace drinking. Nothing else satisfies me so much. I guess im still just a newbie..or just hopeless. I'll have another drink.

Jsbodhi

Suit yourself, you can stop anytime xo

Dee74

I think you have to prepared for a little discomfort. We drank for years - it's going to take a few months at least to find a new normal.

If you can't commit to that, you have a problem cos those things that bought you here to SR are only going to get worse the more you drink.

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Jsbodhi

I don't really know how to reply to that
All I can say is that's what alcohol does.
Lots of people here were suicidal until they stopped drinking.
Alcohol is a poison- its messing with your head.

SoberinSyracuse

Yeah, funny how those thoughts went away for me once I got dried out for a little while. Just like pot makes a lot of people think they want to eat, alcohol makes a lot of people think they want to die.

Jsbodhi

That's really disturbing isn't it? That it makes us want to die.
Creepy actually.
Xo

csaw1112

I'm suicidal mostly when sober.

Jsbodhi

Why?

Dee74

None of us are counsellors, csaw and posts that are too graphic will be removed in case the trigger others.

If you need help there's trained help around csaw.

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...resources.html

Dee
Moderator
SR

grizzlybearblue

I'm pulling for you, csaw, you can do this!! I'm from memphis, and I love seeing another person from my neck of the woods here. I quit doing drugs then I quit drinking, and things have gotten a lot better for me. Really give sobriety a try. I think you'll like it : ) it seems like it's got to be better than what you've got right now. It gets better surprisingly quickly. You can do this!!!

SoberinSyracuse

So was I. But see, when I was an active drinker, even my sober states were messed up by my daily alcohol consumption.

Jsbodhi

Yes exactly!! It lasts for days after.
It's at least a good 3-5 days until the anxiety, depression and insomnia starts to go away.

csaw1112

Bye

Dee74

Noones trying to run you off csaw - just trying to get you to access the right kind of help, man.

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