UnixBer

Hi folks again.

Trying to cut the streak here and starting it sober tomorrow (not today).

Here's a pic waking up with a little alcohol left in the blood:

Ariesagain

Why not today?

(You might want to print out a few copies of that photo and pin them prominently in your trigger locations...I suspect under all that is a nice looking guy!)

MIRecovery

So what are you going to DO different this time? What is your plan? Will power is seldom enough, For me it meant going to a doctor, IOP, AA, and systemic changes in my life.

If we always do, what we always did, we will always, get what we always got.

There is an incredible sober life to be had if we are willing to do what needs to be done

Zebra1275

You look miserable.

So what's the plan? Whatever you are currently doing is not working.

SoberinSyracuse

Yep, that's exactly what my skin looked like 3 weeks ago.

You're young. Quit now while your body is primed to heal and recover.

You joined almost 3 years ago. So, what you've been doing isn't working. Don't just repeat your previous efforts. Kick it up several notches. Go to detox, then either to rehab or an intensive outpatient program, and change every single thing in your life that has anything to do with drinking.

This is what it's gonna take. Ready?

Brauggi

Good job on giving sobriety another go, but why not start today? I can't even tell you the number of times that I told myself that today would be the last day only to see that turn into a prolonged binge.

I remember waking up like that and I can tell you everything gets so much better when you actually wake up refreshed and rested from a good alcohol free sleep. It has been nice seeing a number of people posting on here recently about hitting a year, or another significant milestone. I myself have over a year now and I think that the two universal things that we all have in common is that we don't drink and that one day we made the conscious decision that enough is enough. Welcome back and make your day one today!

UnixBer

I agree that willpower seldom is enough, and often a tactival intervention could even work, even though painful. But also I still believe that us drunks know what we're doing to a certain extent. It's just that quitting can sometimes be difficult.

Ariesagain

LOL. And the winner of the 2016 Obvious Statement of the Year Award goes to...

and it's only January! Congratulations!

I probably shouldn't be teasing you right now, sorry. Yes, it's hard. Yes, it's worth it. Yes, you can.

I'm rooting for you.

Soberwolf

Unix I've followed you a while do you think rehab is an option ?

SoberinSyracuse

Love it and please let me agree with this in my own SiS style: REHAB IS ALWAYS AN OPTION.

After reading a million posts over the last six weeks the only "reasons" I've heard why it's "not an option" are:

• Can't afford it.
• They might take away my phone.
• Have to take time off work.
• Don't want anybody to know.
• Have to wait a while to get in.
• No, really, I've been trying for N years but this time I'm serious. No, for real, it's gonna be different this time.

In other words, just about anything else in life -- especially money -- is more important than sobriety. And can we all agree the only way to beat this is to make sobriety more important than anything else?

I'm just sayin'.

UnixBer

Yeah Rehab is always an option. I just feel like I can do this without a rehab.
Thanks for the replies.

SoberLeigh

Hi Unix; I, too, have been following you here for a while now; very sorry to see that you are struggling.

I agree that rehab would be a great experience for you - a real game-changer, possibly even a life-saver.

Have you read these links?:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html

https://store.samhsa.gov/shin/conten...0/SMA-3720.pdf

https://store.samhsa.gov/shin/conten...SMA12-4474.pdf

sugarbear1

Have you started your sober journey yet, UnixBer?

least

So do it then. Start today.

Nevel

I think everyone here can tell you that you can't do this on your own. If your not ready your not ready. I wasn't. But I told everyone I love I have a problem. Then things I was getting away with where more noticeable. I think we don't always register what we are doing when we are sneaking around, but when people we care about catch us in our addiction it quickly brings things to light.
I missed 6 weeks of work, moved where I lived and started fresh after rehab. Hard times for 2 months but you will realize it will only be harder to confine the life you lead.
It's almost a life changing experience when you can look in the mirror and say I'm going to rehab today and I'm ok with it. Let your fear of the unknown future go. Soon the grass turns green and the unknown all of a sudden isn't so scary.
Rehab although sounds bad was a life changing experience for me and I am an addict and an alcoholic for over 17 years.
One day at a time suddenly has a lot more meaning.

ScottFromWI

Read back through your post history. Pretend you are reading someone else's posts. Then ask yourself if you think the person who wrote them is capable of getting sober on their own.

Here is a link to the headers of the threads you have started...even the titles tell a pretty clear story to me. You have been sober for many months in the past so you know it's possible, but each time we return to drinking it gets harder and harder to quit. There is help out there should you choose to seek if.

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...archid=6850501

SoberinSyracuse

In other words, you're going with my last bullet point: "It'll be different this time." Good choice. It's the one most frequently used.

I'm a Libertarian. If you want to drink, drink. Just be honest about it.

I read your old threads. WOW. They are literally scary.

Nevel

REHAB IS NOT AN OPTION... It's a CHOICE!
You are out of options you'll come to find out soon enough

Venecia

As another of the fellow journeyers who has been around long enough to follow your posts (and photographs), I'm not sure you *can* do this without rehab. History suggests it has been a significant challenge for you.

If it is an option, why not pursue it now. Make the phone calls. Get the paperwork done and check in.

Everyone in addiction deserves a better life, including you Unix. But it doesn't just happen. We have to take action. Posting a drunken photograph does not constitute action.

Carlotta

Unix, some people can quit on their own, others can quit with support of friends and other alcoholics using different programs and tools and then there are some who need to take a break and go to rehab and reset themselves.
Based on your past posts, you are one of the latest. No shame in that. When alcohol and drugs have kicked your butt bad enough you will be ready to make that call.
until then it will be the same old, same old. Just quitting, no plan, marijuana "maintenance", intellectualizing the heck out of the plain simple truth that you are a drunk (like us) who needs to quit and then "relapsing"
Then just quitting again because "this time it will be different". It's a vicious cycle.
If you keep doing the same thing over and over again you can expect the same results.
Do something different this time!
I am just glad that I don't wake up looking and feeling like that anymore.