hokey

How many times must I remind myself why I cannot drink? I guess every time solidifies the choice. I'll figure it out one of these days 😕

SoberLeigh

Welcome back, Hokey!!!!!!

Nice to see you.

ScottFromWI

As many times as you choose. This could be the last if you would like it to be, actually. The variable is how much work you are willing to put into sobriety...are you ready?

hokey

I dunno Scott ... thought I was ready last time ... 6 months sober and it took a couple major emotional losses to set me back to day 1 ... after a considerably long relapse. I can't keep allowing myself to find excuses to drink again. I lost faith ... in my recovery, in my program, but most importantly in myself.

Ruby2

Keep coming back. One day at a time. Good to see you here

Delilah1

Welcome back Hokey! What worked for you during your six months of sobriety?

Soberwolf

Do whatever it takes make reaching out a No 1 priority

Anna

I hope this is the last time.

hokey

I went to a lot of meetings ... that's what kept me sober. Although I have issues with some of the concepts in AA I can't deny how much it helped. Reading and contributing in these forums also helped. I had a few significant losses last winter and I shut down. Didn't want to be around people and certainly didn't want to share my thoughts. It was a painful time and turned back to my old "friend" ... but alas, that's such a worn out excuse.

least

Welcome back! Make this your successful attempt at getting sober for good.

PurpleKnight

Welcome back Holly!!

Dee74

Welcome back Hokey - why not make today 'one of those days'?

do you have a plan for staying sober?

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hokey

Yes I have a plan ... or at least the basis for one. I need to work on the things that have proven to be stumbling blocks for me in the past. Dealing with grief which turns to anger which turns to resentment which turns to self-pity which ends in the first drink ... and the second ... and , well, you know. I had 3 months and relapsed ... then I had 6 months and relapsed. I need to put on my big girl pants and really deal with my ****. For today ... i won't drink and I will go to a meeting. I will face tomorrow when tomorrow comes and make the choice to not drink tomorrow. One day at a time ... one step at a time ... one breath at a time.

FormerWineGirl

I hope this is time sobriety sticks for you, Holly. It sounds like you definitely know what your triggers are, so maybe you can formulate a solid plan to deal with those types of issues in the future.