Day 650
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Day 650
Sometimes we don't have to get sober because we went to jail or was forced to go to rehab which is what most people think that if your sober then oooooo geez you must have been a horrible person or what did you do so wrong that you can't drink with us. Yes some people can get sober without having to go through those kind of things as have a moment of clarity one day and decide they need to make a change. Don't get me wrong I did a lot of stupid things and **** sometimes I still do stupid things when I'm sober but we are all human and make mistakes. So I randomly woke up with another dream about my ex who I was with for 6 years and I am now back at my moms house in my sisters old bedroom feeling somewhat unaccomplished and unsuccessful these days. I'm glad I'm still sober and am pushing hard to try to improve my health and body everyday, the mind is a different story though. Throughout this 650 day journey I've experienced a lot that in my younger years I would have picked up the bottle multiple times or rolled multiple blunts weather it was attending multiple sporting events a wedding, New Year's Eve or holidays the list goes on. Their is always the temptation everyday and night. I use this one to keep myself going when sometimes the pressure is their "I've come to far now to turn back now". Sometimes I think I'm too hard on myself but I'm always trying to challenge myself and I know deep deep down I can do better. Today I will try to look back on the last 650 days and realize I'm a strong person when it comes to sustaining from alcohol and smoking. I'm not always the happiest person but I'm trying to work On that. The gym has become my new addiction for a while now and I'm trying to take it to another level more than I ever have before I've been lifting off and on since I was 14 years old. It keeps me busy and my mind off of certain things due to the problem of thinking too much, you think so much when your alone and you get inside your own head and it can become a very dangerous place. So as I approach today day 650 I will kick my ass in the gym today and it's leg day which is always fun. I will also look forward to my next goal on April 3rd 2016 and hopefully celebrate my 2nd year sober and my 27th birthday in the same month and hopefully I'm in a better place than I am today. Thank you for reading this today and thanks for the support here on sober recovery it really has been a staple in my sobreity. I've tried AA and im just not sure if it is for me yet so this is a much better way for me to speak to others as of right now. I hope your recovery is going well and when your tempted to give in just tell yourself "I've come to far to turn back now"
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Congratulations and thank you for sharing that. You're right. Life isn't always perfect but drinking never made any of the bad things better. Didn't really add much to the good times either.
I found that I'm still growing and learning in year two. You can too. Keep going!
I found that I'm still growing and learning in year two. You can too. Keep going!
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