Pressmetilihurt

I'm doing day 1. It's almost over. I'm already not sure I want to go down this road again. I've been sober before. I always felt left out. I have been drinking thru the holidays. I'm functional but it's become a requirement. I just wanna stay in bed and hide from the world. Drinking doesn't do what it promises. I went to a meeting today. I liked holding hands at the end. I don't want a sponsor or another book. Don't even know if I need to be here. I just want to be happy.

kiki

gettingsmarter

Hi Pressmetilihurt.

Welcome.

GroundhogDay

Welcome back! How long were you sober before?

So, it sounds like you need to do more than just get sober. Perhaps make some life changes. I know I had to. I'm much happier now and over a year sober.

Coldfusion

Hi Kiki!

It sounds to me as if alcohol is troubling you. I found an answer to my problems with alcohol by going to meetings, and reading and posting here at SoberRecovery.

I hope you stick around!

Pressmetilihurt

I had 3 years at one time. I quit doing sober stuff. Was white knuckling it. It sucked. I started drinking. I'm not homeless. No DUI's. I..I find that alcohol is part of all my socializing. I'm getting drunk, passing out, making bad decisions. The worse part is my kid is noticing how central alcohol has become. What kind of life changes?

TNTStill

You're right. Drink doesn't do what it promises.

Hope you feel better.

Pressmetilihurt

I was thinking of doing Kaisers 2 week program. I'd have to take off work but at least I could get started. I feel like I don't remember how to not drink. I was gonna get a burger then I looked at all the beers on the menu. I went somewhere else.

Jsbodhi

Aw!!! You're so cute! You liked holding hands!!!
Me too

Delilah1

I didn't know Kaiser had a two week program, is it inpatient?

teatreeoil007

You should be more happy by removing alcohol and stop assaulting your brain with the depressant ... Something to look forward to!!

SoberinSyracuse

I definitely vote for doing the program! It'll give you some clarity and a little time to think through some things.

Um.... Don't take this wrong, but I put off dealing seriously with my drinking problem for a long time, based on the fact that I was "functional," had never been arrested, etc. Then one day, BOOM! I was arrested for DWI.

It's a very fine line separating "high functioning" alcoholics from those other poor souls.

And besides...while "functioning" is okay, wouldn't you rather be kicking butt and taking names, living to your fullest potential?

least

I hope you can find the support, here and elsewhere, to get sober for good.

PurpleKnight

Welcome to the Forum Kiki!!

Dee74

Hi

I had to change my life when I got sober because all my friends and all the activities I did were all about drinking.

Try to live that life without drinking and you'll definitely feel like an outsider.

Do you have any sober friends, or friends where the friendship is not based around drinking? that's a good start

wanting to stay in bed all day is often a good indication somethings not right - do you think you might be depressed?

the other thing to consider is - we drank for years - it can take a little time for us to adapt ourselves into a sober life and be happy.

Growth will always take time

How long have you been sober for in the past, pressme?

D

Vinificent

Can I offer a bit of advice? Write down the details of your rock bottom moment that you knew you wanted to stop drinking. It could be anything from puking your brains out to waking up in a jail cell and not knowing how you got there. The important thing are the details - time tends to dull the pain you felt at that moment, so when I feel the desire to drink and start to believe I could have just one like a "normal" person, I re-read my rock bottom story and keep in mind that it started with one drink.
Good luck and keep reading/posting!

Soberwolf

Welcome KiKi