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I want to sincerely apologize if I am breaking the rules of this forum by posting while still intoxicated. I have been drinking for 6 days. Before this, I was 3 days sober following a 6 day binge that ended up in a hospital visit. Before that, I had several weeks to a month sober punctuated by a few slips. I have been trying hard. What I am failing to do is realize that it's the 1st drink that is the problem. It always leads to this.
Anyway, I have only had 2 drinks today. And 5mg of Valium (I know, not a good idea but it's a low dose). I am Just trying to get better.
Thank you for listening.
Anyway, I have only had 2 drinks today. And 5mg of Valium (I know, not a good idea but it's a low dose). I am Just trying to get better.
Thank you for listening.
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Welcome, and of course I'm glad you posted. Many people arrive here still drinking, and then find the strength to stop for good. I hope you will find that, too. As you said, mixing alcohol and valium, even in small doses, is very scary. We do understand how hard this is and I hope that you will decide to live a sober life. We're here to offer support.
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Join Date: Oct 2013
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Hi tonicnlime and welcome to SR.
You've come to the right place if you want to stop drinking. There's lots of help from people who have had similar experiences to yourself.
I agree with what you said. Yes, it is the first drink what leads to bingeing.
You've come to the right place if you want to stop drinking. There's lots of help from people who have had similar experiences to yourself.
I agree with what you said. Yes, it is the first drink what leads to bingeing.
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Join Date: Jan 2016
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Like literally every time without exception. I remember thinking like 4 or 5 days ago that I would just stop. Didn't happen. It never happens. I feel like I should staple a piece of paper to my forehead that says don't drink! lol
Edit: Kidding aside, no self harm intended
Edit: Kidding aside, no self harm intended
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Join Date: Dec 2013
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Glad you are here & posting T. I can sense the desire you have to quit the drinking & know the vicious cycle well. Know you are not alone in this & you will find much support & encouragent here.
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Welcome
The first drink for me also lead to the vicious cycle, that insidious insanity. When an alcoholic is sober and picks up that first drink, that is a pretty good definition.
I was sick and needed a program of recovery - SR is an integral part of my plan today, Hope you'll stick around
The first drink for me also lead to the vicious cycle, that insidious insanity. When an alcoholic is sober and picks up that first drink, that is a pretty good definition.
I was sick and needed a program of recovery - SR is an integral part of my plan today, Hope you'll stick around
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Join Date: Sep 2015
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STOPPING can START at any point in time. But you don't STOP until you: STOP. You've stopped, now stay stopped. You've done it before--you can do it again.I think the AV would like to convince a person they can't stop until certain conditions are met. It wold also like to convince people they can only stop for "X" length of time.
You can have reasons, or you can have results, but you can't have both.
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Hi, Tonic/Lime. I'm glad you came here.
This might sound weird, but I'm still drinking in a medically-guided taper plan to get me ready for complete detox starting January 11. It's hard not being able to drink the way I want to, but I'm so sick of this illness I'm ready to do anything at all to defeat it.
So, what's your plan and how can we help you? If you don't have a plan, I really suggest you start making one. Only the structure of my plan is keeping me within limits. I relapsed twice on my previous attempts because I didn't have a plan.
Keep going, and keep us updated!
This might sound weird, but I'm still drinking in a medically-guided taper plan to get me ready for complete detox starting January 11. It's hard not being able to drink the way I want to, but I'm so sick of this illness I'm ready to do anything at all to defeat it.
So, what's your plan and how can we help you? If you don't have a plan, I really suggest you start making one. Only the structure of my plan is keeping me within limits. I relapsed twice on my previous attempts because I didn't have a plan.
Keep going, and keep us updated!
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I have only had 2 drinks today. And 5mg of Valium
Sounds like you are trying to deal with "the shakes."
Been there, done that. It's pretty miserable.
The good news is, if you are like me after a couple of days you are fine. The key at that point, is to not pick up again. As you know, it's the first drink that get's you going, so basically you need a defense against that first drink.
Stick around, this website can help you figure out how to possibly accomplish that.
Sounds like you are trying to deal with "the shakes."
Been there, done that. It's pretty miserable.
The good news is, if you are like me after a couple of days you are fine. The key at that point, is to not pick up again. As you know, it's the first drink that get's you going, so basically you need a defense against that first drink.
Stick around, this website can help you figure out how to possibly accomplish that.
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