Five Reasons to Stay Sober Tonight
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Five Reasons to Stay Sober Tonight
Hi again.
I am surprised at how anxious I feel this afternoon and am sure it has everything to do with not drinking. The idea keeps rolling through my brain: just one would take the edge off. And it's followed by: and you've been trying this unsuccessfully for over a decade. Today is only different if i stay sober. I realize this. Because I love lists, I'm reminding myself of five things to stay sober for:
1. I feel like my brain is scrambled. I want clarity and grounding again. I want to be fully conscious of every decision that i make and be sure that I am thoughtful in doing so. Booze is like putting my thoughts in a blender and trying to put the fruit back together once I sober up.
2. I have a lot of goals - most importantly, getting fit again and writing a book. Booze takes away the motivation to work toward these goals.
3. I want to be spiritually grounded and wake in the morning proud of who I am and what I have done. I hate the AM regrets more than anything else I generally experience. The hazy memories, the bad stomach, and the piercing guilt. I don't want to feel that way anymore.
4. I'm tired of lying and secret drinking. Years of sneaking booze has all but obliterated my sense of self and made me feel unworthy. While sober, I'm actually very principled.
5. I don't want to be ruled by fear. Fear is why I drink. Fear is the tactic my brain utilizes in the rationale to drink. It's like my brain knows me well enough to unleash every one of my most panic inducing fears with a promise that they will go away with just one beer - one glass of wine. But those fears don't go away. They're always there the next morning and I know the charade well enough to understand it's just my alcoholic brain.
Those are my five for the day. Thanks for reading. -A
I am surprised at how anxious I feel this afternoon and am sure it has everything to do with not drinking. The idea keeps rolling through my brain: just one would take the edge off. And it's followed by: and you've been trying this unsuccessfully for over a decade. Today is only different if i stay sober. I realize this. Because I love lists, I'm reminding myself of five things to stay sober for:
1. I feel like my brain is scrambled. I want clarity and grounding again. I want to be fully conscious of every decision that i make and be sure that I am thoughtful in doing so. Booze is like putting my thoughts in a blender and trying to put the fruit back together once I sober up.
2. I have a lot of goals - most importantly, getting fit again and writing a book. Booze takes away the motivation to work toward these goals.
3. I want to be spiritually grounded and wake in the morning proud of who I am and what I have done. I hate the AM regrets more than anything else I generally experience. The hazy memories, the bad stomach, and the piercing guilt. I don't want to feel that way anymore.
4. I'm tired of lying and secret drinking. Years of sneaking booze has all but obliterated my sense of self and made me feel unworthy. While sober, I'm actually very principled.
5. I don't want to be ruled by fear. Fear is why I drink. Fear is the tactic my brain utilizes in the rationale to drink. It's like my brain knows me well enough to unleash every one of my most panic inducing fears with a promise that they will go away with just one beer - one glass of wine. But those fears don't go away. They're always there the next morning and I know the charade well enough to understand it's just my alcoholic brain.
Those are my five for the day. Thanks for reading. -A
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This is great, I've had on/off anxiety over the last few days (it was always going 2b hard) but making a list is a brilliant idea.....perhaps when i c it in black & white i can feel better about my choice!!!
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Originally Posted by VDGS 
I want to be spiritually grounded and wake in the morning proud of who I am and what I have done. I hate the AM regrets more than anything else I generally experience. The hazy memories, the bad stomach, and the piercing guilt. I don't want to feel that way anymore.
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