graywh1teblue

I'm very sorry to say that on my 28th day clean...i relapsed hard. been on a full opiate binge the past 8 days including today. I HATE myself. Why did I throw away all my hard work? And why is starting over so hard? Need to jump out of this cycle fast before it's too late.

Anna

I'm sorry that happened. And, I think you're right, starting over gets harder each time. It would probably be helpful to figure out why you decided to use drugs, so that you can come up with a plan for next time.

Vona71

I'm so sorry, Gray. Remember that any day is a good day to try again. You already have some of the skills to quit. You can do it again! (((Hugs)))

Hevyn

I had this happen a few times, Gray. I finally was so disgusted with myself that I found the courage & strength to stay on track. You can do it too. In my opinion, the 28 days wasn't lost - you learned something valuable. Never give up on yourself.

least

I hope this time you can get clean and sober for good.

blueberry2015

Not for nothing, relapse can help see where you may need to alter your plan. Have a good look as to WHY you relapsed, were there any outside stressors, anxiety or did you buckle to cravings for example. 28 days is a huge achievement, dont be too hard on yourself. Did relapse actually solve anything? Learn from it. Get back into sobriety as soon as you can and look to see how you can prevent a relapse in the future x x x .

Dee74

I don;t think the 28 days were for nothing. You proved you can be clean - now you have to work on the staying clean permanently bit.

Did you have enough support? did you use the support you have?

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IronPhoenix

Those 28 days were not lost Gray - now dust yourself off and build on top of those with new sober days. Post here often if it will help you stay on track. Create and work a sobriety plan if it will help you stay accountable. We are in this journey with you.

You can do this.

Soonerman

28 days "was" huge...shows you can do it. Plus you helped me..I have 25 days today and I for sure do not want to start over. So, get going on day 1.

waywardson8260

If you learned what went wrong and can apply changes to any mistakes, then that 28 days can be a foundation for a new start. I wish you the best.

JohnQPublic

Gray, I feel you really I do. But like others I say turn this idea around. You didn't fail after 28 days. You had 28 days clean! When is the last time you purposely did that? I am not saying give up and go crazy but be realistic. Be fair to yourself. If we didn't relapse, make slips, whatever, then it wouldn't be a problem. We could pick it up and put it down without it ruling our lives. I am proud of your 28 days. Just don't give up and see what you do next time a day at a time. Sending you hope.

Soonerman

hello my sweet folks....being in Asia now I just finished Christmas Eve..I made it..though still early I going to bed....going to wake up Christmas Day with out a hangover....oh yaaaaaaaa Night Night

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soberclover

It's always an option to start your day over at any time; make it a clean and sober one. Don't ever give up....ever.

Soberwolf

Stick close to SR & try again have you got a plan

FreeOwl

Good news!

You can use the negative energy of this experience to your advantage! Shift it from a reason to beat yourself up to a reason to get clean with even greater resolve.

Almost all of us experienced failures and setbacks.... those were how we learned and deepened our commitment to a better life.

PurpleKnight

Addiction of any kind is hard to break, but you made it 28 Days, so with a few tweaks to your plan and going at things again, you'll be able to make Sobriety happen!!

You can do this!!

graywh1teblue

thank you so much! it means a lot that i might have helped someone else very encouraging.

graywh1teblue

Thank you all for the encouraging replys! I love you all so much!

Hevyn

We're all in this togetgher, Gray. It's going to be ok.

ulfr

pick yourself up dust yourself off and start again
Day 1 day 1 for me too you can do it i know you can
we are all here for you
Merry Christmas