not so good lately
not so good lately
I've had a major fall off the wagon lately (for several months). Of course it hasn't been going so well lately. I've pretty much alienated all those who once loved me, friends and family, made a fool out of myself, started being mean to those I love, neglected important aspects of life etc....etc...
I'm kind of at a new low and my insides feel like they are dissolving. Along with my mind. Gotta get back on track.
I want to.
Christmas is this Friday, I don't want to ruin it.
I want to be sober again.
I got up this morning and cracked another beer, stared at it a minute, and thought ...NO..and poured them down the drain.
So I'm hoping this is another turning point for me, the coffee is on.
Have a nice day.
I'm kind of at a new low and my insides feel like they are dissolving. Along with my mind. Gotta get back on track.
I want to.
Christmas is this Friday, I don't want to ruin it.
I want to be sober again.
I got up this morning and cracked another beer, stared at it a minute, and thought ...NO..and poured them down the drain.
So I'm hoping this is another turning point for me, the coffee is on.
Have a nice day.
Shower, shave, clean clothes go do a little neglected Christmas shopping in a few hours is my plan for now.
I've tried counseling, AA, acupuncture, in the past but keep slipping.
The most success I've had in the last several years has been just hanging out here with some good people I met. My record was 8 months. I need sobriety and sanity back.
Thanks for listening.
I've tried counseling, AA, acupuncture, in the past but keep slipping.
The most success I've had in the last several years has been just hanging out here with some good people I met. My record was 8 months. I need sobriety and sanity back.
Thanks for listening.
Nice to see you are still around. I remember you from a few years ago and was wondering what happened to you.
After 60 days back then, I went back out for another year and a half, until I was convinced that I can't take that first drink without inviting misery and hell back into my life.
What worked for me was having face-to-face support, a recovery program, and then just riding out those first rough months. Now at almost 6 months this time, life is finally getting better.
You can do this.
After 60 days back then, I went back out for another year and a half, until I was convinced that I can't take that first drink without inviting misery and hell back into my life.
What worked for me was having face-to-face support, a recovery program, and then just riding out those first rough months. Now at almost 6 months this time, life is finally getting better.
You can do this.
It seems lately I have been going through withdrawl every morning actually. I dry heave till noon till I can finally pour a couple of drinks down which seems to settle things down, but then I'm once again off and running for the entire day.
I have been tapering down slowly the last few days, so hoping it won't be so severe today.
I have been tapering down slowly the last few days, so hoping it won't be so severe today.
I quit for over a month earlier this year with the help of a counselor but eventually I ended up just hitting the liquor store after our sessions, so I gave up on that at that point. I
l'll figure some plan out, but for now, I just plan on not drinking.
l'll figure some plan out, but for now, I just plan on not drinking.
I have a lot of amends to do from this last 6 month bender though. I'm hoping I can salvage things, but that remains to be seen I guess. I want to get back to being the man that I know I am, not some drunken fool.
Staying sober is the best ( and only ) way to accomplish this of course.
You mentioned that you tried AA, counseling, etc but after a while you just drank again. Consider the fact that it perhaps isn't AA/counseling/etc that is the problem but that its your inability/lack of motivation in following those plans that is at the root of the issue.
For most of us it's a combination of multiple "plans" or resources that finally gets us on the track of long-term sobriety. For me it's mostly been SR and counseling and my family. But the bottom line for me was nothing worked until I unconditionally accepted that drinking even one drink is NEVER an option for me. And it never will be, no matter how long I stay sober or how good i feel....picking up one drink will be my demise so cannot ever do it again.
You mentioned that you tried AA, counseling, etc but after a while you just drank again. Consider the fact that it perhaps isn't AA/counseling/etc that is the problem but that its your inability/lack of motivation in following those plans that is at the root of the issue.
For most of us it's a combination of multiple "plans" or resources that finally gets us on the track of long-term sobriety. For me it's mostly been SR and counseling and my family. But the bottom line for me was nothing worked until I unconditionally accepted that drinking even one drink is NEVER an option for me. And it never will be, no matter how long I stay sober or how good i feel....picking up one drink will be my demise so cannot ever do it again.
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Hi, Hooped!
Remember me old friend? I am so glad to see you are ok. I know you don't feel "ok" right now, but you're here, you're trying, you care about yourself and others—which makes you in a lot better place than you could be, you know? A LOT better.
I hope you can put aside the regrets for a while, there will be plenty of time for amends later. You can't control others' feelings, so let's just focus on you for now, OK? It's not selfish at all.... it's Step One in order to for you be there for others later. The important thing right now is continuing to do right by yourself, to be true to yourself. You're doing that already, right now, it began the second you poured out that drink, no more milestones required. I'm super proud of you and hope you are proud of yourself, too. ))
Remember me old friend? I am so glad to see you are ok. I know you don't feel "ok" right now, but you're here, you're trying, you care about yourself and others—which makes you in a lot better place than you could be, you know? A LOT better.
I hope you can put aside the regrets for a while, there will be plenty of time for amends later. You can't control others' feelings, so let's just focus on you for now, OK? It's not selfish at all.... it's Step One in order to for you be there for others later. The important thing right now is continuing to do right by yourself, to be true to yourself. You're doing that already, right now, it began the second you poured out that drink, no more milestones required. I'm super proud of you and hope you are proud of yourself, too. ))
Hi, Hooped!
Remember me old friend? I am so glad to see you are ok. I know you don't feel "ok" right now, but you're here, you're trying, you care about yourself and others—which makes you in a lot better place than you could be, you know? A LOT better.
I hope you can put aside the regrets for a while, there will be plenty of time for amends later. You can't control others' feelings, so let's just focus on you for now, OK? It's not selfish at all.... it's Step One in order to for you be there for others later. The important thing right now is continuing to do right by yourself, to be true to yourself. You're doing that already, right now, it began the second you poured out that drink, no more milestones required. I'm super proud of you and hope you are proud of yourself, too. ))
Remember me old friend? I am so glad to see you are ok. I know you don't feel "ok" right now, but you're here, you're trying, you care about yourself and others—which makes you in a lot better place than you could be, you know? A LOT better.
I hope you can put aside the regrets for a while, there will be plenty of time for amends later. You can't control others' feelings, so let's just focus on you for now, OK? It's not selfish at all.... it's Step One in order to for you be there for others later. The important thing right now is continuing to do right by yourself, to be true to yourself. You're doing that already, right now, it began the second you poured out that drink, no more milestones required. I'm super proud of you and hope you are proud of yourself, too. ))
Welome back, Hooped; it's very nice to see you again.
Great job pouring the beer down the drain.
I echo what Scott said; bottom line for me was mentally accepting that I could never drink again and committing (once and for all, never to change my mind) to never drink again.
You can do this, Hooped.
Great job pouring the beer down the drain.
I echo what Scott said; bottom line for me was mentally accepting that I could never drink again and committing (once and for all, never to change my mind) to never drink again.
You can do this, Hooped.
I'm so glad you wanted to talk about what's going on, Hooped. You know we're here to listen and help. I was in a similar state when I poured my last beer down the drain - and I never picked up another one. It can definitely be done. You sound ready.
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