Starting over
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Starting over
So I'm back at starting point. A few black outs latter, calling in sick to work, humiliating myself. And I finally finally had enough of the insanity. Actually I drank this morning but I poured the rest out. So I'm starting sober from midday. My dog looked at me with such fear and worry while I drank and cried myself into a stupor last night, it made me so sad to see. Even my dog is worried about me.
God I pray I can do it this time. I'm going to start by canceling my new year plans and staying in with a cup of tea this year, I need to start the year off on the right foot.
Sorry for the pointless post I just need to make it official in my mind.
God I pray I can do it this time. I'm going to start by canceling my new year plans and staying in with a cup of tea this year, I need to start the year off on the right foot.
Sorry for the pointless post I just need to make it official in my mind.
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Starting over is ok
Originally Posted by Shantilove 
So I'm back at starting point. A few black outs latter, calling in sick to work, humiliating myself. And I finally finally had enough of the insanity. Actually I drank this morning but I poured the rest out. So I'm starting sober from midday. My dog looked at me with such fear and worry while I drank and cried myself into a stupor last night, it made me so sad to see. Even my dog is worried about me.
God I pray I can do it this time. I'm going to start by canceling my new year plans and staying in with a cup of tea this year, I need to start the year off on the right foot.
Sorry for the pointless post I just need to make it official in my mind.
God I pray I can do it this time. I'm going to start by canceling my new year plans and staying in with a cup of tea this year, I need to start the year off on the right foot.
Sorry for the pointless post I just need to make it official in my mind.
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We're hear to listen to such (not) pointless posts. I believe you can do it. Having some tea for the new year sounds like a great plan to me. It may not be a party, but starting out the year sober is an exciting idea to me.
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Yes the last thing I want is to start the year with a black out and impending doom.
I am living in a country which sells alcohol 24/7 at all convinice stores, this has been my problem, also a county which isn't my home I feel like I can get away with it. Enough is enough. I don't have a plan yet I just need to take it minute by minute. I have so much to be grateful for but I am always sad. Maybe therapy would help.
I am living in a country which sells alcohol 24/7 at all convinice stores, this has been my problem, also a county which isn't my home I feel like I can get away with it. Enough is enough. I don't have a plan yet I just need to take it minute by minute. I have so much to be grateful for but I am always sad. Maybe therapy would help.
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Welcome back shantilove 
I think, if we want it, we can get and stay sober anywhere , I really do
I understand it feels like minute to minute right now but a plan is really important.
This is a great link to get you started?
https://store.samhsa.gov/shin/conten...0/SMA-3720.pdf
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I think, if we want it, we can get and stay sober anywhere , I really do
I understand it feels like minute to minute right now but a plan is really important.
This is a great link to get you started?
https://store.samhsa.gov/shin/conten...0/SMA-3720.pdf
D
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I think most have had a rough go starting this journey. Change is scary. Continuing on the routine of constant intoxication is ultimately more scary.
Good that you've gotten to the point of realizing the need to change. Really wanting to change is the 1st step.
Good luck!
Good that you've gotten to the point of realizing the need to change. Really wanting to change is the 1st step.
Good luck!
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You can do this! I'm on my third restart myself and 7 (I guess technically 8 now) days in. Like Dee said, it's all about having a plan in place. I've reworked mine a lot over the past two years and I've learned a lot on my journey. As Grizzly said, let's just do this and be done with alcohol for good!
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After a night tossing and turning and feeling cold, I've woken up with a combination of excitement for the future and anxiety. It's so important to remember that these feelings of anxiety do pass they are not permanent and everything in life can be changed. So I'm committing to the change. I'm going to buy some fruit to juice and start drinking tea. Taking it one day at a time.
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I am living in a country which sells alcohol 24/7 at all convinice stores, this has been my problem.
No that isn't your problem. You like to get drunk like myself and others, and it sure is easy to buy.
It's easy to do a lot of things that are bad for you, stop it!
No that isn't your problem. You like to get drunk like myself and others, and it sure is easy to buy.
It's easy to do a lot of things that are bad for you, stop it!
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