ZeldaFan

So I've been dealing with some personal stuff the past few weeks and I let it get the best of me by the end of the week. For days straight I was taking down massive amounts of vodka just like before. I failed to properly use my AVRT tools and should have posted here.

That said, I've dusted myself off and it's back to day 1. Went to the office today to do some catching up since I took time off to do my drinking. This way I will be able to sleep easier tonight knowing I'm at least caught up on emails. Then it's time to wash the sheets and freshen up my bed.

Wanted to post here to be accountable.

MidnightBlue

Welcome back, Zelda.

"should have posted here " - yes, support is important. Stick to us.

Soberwolf

Nice to see you Zelda welcome bk

JD

Welcome back zelda. It happens sometimes. Use it as a learning experience.

dwtbd

Great job getting back, You Can Do This
What's your plan for future alcohol use ?

julesonya

welcome back- feel the same way when I have drank. If i post here first I wont drink.

ZeldaFan

Thanks for all the support everyone! THIS is why I need to post here BEFORE I pick up a drink. My plan is no never drink again. I want that and I use that as part of my AVRT. Of course, if I don't practice it then it doesn't do much good. So definitely need to work on that.

Para

Good to have you come back!
It is day 2 for me.
Like you I was downing a lot of vodka, and letting my work slide.
I plan to go in to work early tomorrow to catch up.

saoutchik

Welcome back Zeldafan, good to see you again

Hollaa11

Hello! I am brand new to this site. For the past couple of years my drinking has gone from "party time" to drinking alone and making HORRIBLE life choices. Literally the part you wrote about freshening up your bed is exactly what I have to do once leaving work tonight. The thought of what my apartment looks like after Friday nights festivities is absolutely terrifying and disgusting. Most likely the smell of stale beer, old ciggs, and a ton of regret. I currently do outpatient where I see a counselor one on one during the week and 2 groups. It has helped but I can't find it in myself to completely stop. I always, always come back to "day one" like you said. Don't get down, I know it's hard. These past few months have been the worst for me... I'm looking for support and I'm here to offer some as well! We can do this.

ZeldaFan

Thanks Hollaa11. We can do this. We must do this! Your support means a lot and I'm here to support you as well. I'm getting much better insurance in a few weeks so I'm going to look into some counseling once that kicks in. Can't hurt to add another thing to the mix of tools.

Grizzly18

glad your back, i am with you all the way

Anna

Zeldafan, I'm glad you're back. Can you come up with some healthy ways to deal with stress when it happens again?

dwtbd

Bottle the positive 'tudes on this thread , It can be done , you can do it

PurpleKnight

Welcome back Zelda!!

soberclover

I read something today about recovery being an every day choice.....and it made a lot of sense to me and it is true for me. Don't stray too far from SR....I found it helpful for me to commit to checking in on this site every day.

Hevyn

Zelda, I'm really happy to see you.

Dee74

Welcome back Zelda

I think a plan needs to be a little more than I will never drink again...I dunno much about AVRT tho.

welcome to you too Hollaa

ZeldaFan

Thanks for all the well wishes today all. In bed with my freshly washed beddings, caught up on work, sleepytime tea next to me and my laptop with SR. Good to be back to the routine. It's amazing how quickly one bad choice spins so quickly out of control. Definitely a learning experience!

Sean30

Good on you for getting through the day Zelda all we can do after a relapse is get sober again and become a little stronger from our mistakes. Hope day 2 goes well for you, just stay away from that first drink no matter what. You can do this