It Doesn't Take Long
It Doesn't Take Long
Only five days sober so far, and in spite of making it this far (and beyond) before - I am always amazed at how quickly I feel like a new person. I am sitting here early this morning pretty sure I fractured my heel yesterday, and I am so damn grateful I'm not hungover, and that I didn't bring this upon myself with some drunken idiocy. Just waiting for office hours at doc or urgent care to hopefully get a course of action.
But the most amazing thing about my sober self is I am not feeling sorry for myself, and not getting all freaked out about how I will get things done for the holidays and at work. Part of this is because of lessons I managed to retain from my previous sober periods, but a large part is because I have the gift of 5 extra hours every day that I am not drinking and 3 that I'm not hungover. So if I have to walk slowly on crutches, or stay off my feet awhile during the day, I should still have plenty of time to figure out how to get everything done.
But the most amazing thing about my sober self is I am not feeling sorry for myself, and not getting all freaked out about how I will get things done for the holidays and at work. Part of this is because of lessons I managed to retain from my previous sober periods, but a large part is because I have the gift of 5 extra hours every day that I am not drinking and 3 that I'm not hungover. So if I have to walk slowly on crutches, or stay off my feet awhile during the day, I should still have plenty of time to figure out how to get everything done.
I here ya. It's amazing the amount of time in a day was devoted to alcohol.
I was an all day drinker, so I was literally either drunk or suffering from a hangover in the form of panic attacks or high anxiety.
That was my choice for the day. Either be completely freaked out, or drunk.
So much time wasted making sure I had liquor available. So much time wasted sneaking drinks, making drinks, hiding bottles, disposing old bottles secretly, masking my breath....so much time wasted.
I sure am glad that's all over with.
Congrats to you for stringing 5 days together. Ride that train man. Stay on for the whole ride. Even greater things lie ahead of you!
I was an all day drinker, so I was literally either drunk or suffering from a hangover in the form of panic attacks or high anxiety.
That was my choice for the day. Either be completely freaked out, or drunk.
So much time wasted making sure I had liquor available. So much time wasted sneaking drinks, making drinks, hiding bottles, disposing old bottles secretly, masking my breath....so much time wasted.
I sure am glad that's all over with.
Congrats to you for stringing 5 days together. Ride that train man. Stay on for the whole ride. Even greater things lie ahead of you!
I am with ya here :-) - on day 9 and feeling brilliant. Have no idea where this energy has come from and I am strangely in a good mood all day,everyday. I'm actually feeling a bit worried if I am soon to become in a depressive state but going with it!
Great post! Happy Friday
Great post! Happy Friday
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