Something suddenly changed....
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Join Date: Oct 2014
Location: San Diego
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Something suddenly changed....
Well, I had no idea how truly deeply ingrained alcohol was in my brain. I figured 5 months of sobriety would be enough, but it wasn't, my emotions were Always everywhere, but I dealt with it, thinking it was some genetic disposition to depression....
This past year, I've made major progress, going several months at a time without booze, and now currently am at 2 months, I am not going to relapse, but I just wanted to share with you guys that all of a sudden, I noticed a mental change, I think my brain literally has repaired a major part of itself, I can feel it. I feel like a normal person these past couple a days, it just suddenly happened.
Which leads me to believe that alcohol was in fact the culprit the entire time, even though I drank on the weekends.
I seriously thought that the depression I was feeling was genetic all these years, but here I am, these past couple of days, I don't feel that nagging hopelessness. It happened so suddenly, I woke up, feeling normal these couple of days.
I guess I've kept at trying to stay sober long enough in big intervals which in turn allowed my brain to repair whatever was majorly affected. I can't believe my mind was hijacked by something I never suspected all these years....
It can only get better from here on out...Wow, everyone that says it gets better, they weren't lying. I was going to wait a couple more weeks to say something, but I think this is the real deal.
This past year, I've made major progress, going several months at a time without booze, and now currently am at 2 months, I am not going to relapse, but I just wanted to share with you guys that all of a sudden, I noticed a mental change, I think my brain literally has repaired a major part of itself, I can feel it. I feel like a normal person these past couple a days, it just suddenly happened.
Which leads me to believe that alcohol was in fact the culprit the entire time, even though I drank on the weekends.
I seriously thought that the depression I was feeling was genetic all these years, but here I am, these past couple of days, I don't feel that nagging hopelessness. It happened so suddenly, I woke up, feeling normal these couple of days.
I guess I've kept at trying to stay sober long enough in big intervals which in turn allowed my brain to repair whatever was majorly affected. I can't believe my mind was hijacked by something I never suspected all these years....
It can only get better from here on out...Wow, everyone that says it gets better, they weren't lying. I was going to wait a couple more weeks to say something, but I think this is the real deal.
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Join Date: Sep 2011
Location: Louisana
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OfEpiphany, 2 months sober is just FANTASTIC, congratulations. At over 5 years sober, I have lots of good things to say about it, however, emotional issues intensified and emotions are all over the place as you describe. I'm beginning to realize some problems I may have may not be related to chemical substance abuse at all. Just sayin, rootin for ya. 
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Join Date: Jul 2015
Location: Margate, UK
Posts: 549
Yep, alcohol is not only addictive, it's like a poison that causes all kinds of problems. I just don't think the human body is compatible with alcohol at all. I mean it's not like water, which we need to survive. It messes with your brain and the liver hates it. If I drank today I would feel like crap!
Good work! Keep it up 👍
Good work! Keep it up 👍
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Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: Castle Pines, CO
Posts: 747
I have thought and felt the same way. I have also noticed that I am appreciating the beauty of life more. I notice sunrises and sunsets, the snow on the mountains, birds, wind through the trees, etc...I believe my mind was closed off to such things because it was poisoned. Now that the booze is gone, 43 days, I am living my life instead of going through the motions till the next drink.
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Join Date: Sep 2012
Location: Grand Rapids MI
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The greatest thing is the longer you are sober the better it gets. If sobriety wasn't a whole lot better than drinking there would be no reason to stop dinking but it is so that is why I'm happily sober
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