Can't carry on
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Join Date: Aug 2015
Location: Auckland, New Zealand
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Can't carry on
Hi I have been reading posts for a while but haven't had the courage to post anything. I simply do not know how to stop drinking. I am now 47 and was in rehab at 23. since then I have had moments of being a "functioning alcoholic" with education etc but the toll that my drinking has taken has now destroyed me. I used to be a binge drinker now I am a daily drinker unable to hold down a job, and have lost everyone. The pain is unbearable. Everyday I say that is it I'm done, then I do it again. I hate myself- who I have become. I was in AA for years and the longest I got was 90 days. I can't believe who I have become. I am broke, avoid everyone, live in a dump and still all I want is alcohol. Ironically I used to work with end stage alcoholics, and I know exactly how this will end but I still can't stop. The pain is terrible when I do drink but even worse when I don't. Any suggestions would be appreciated.
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Join Date: May 2012
Location: US East Coast
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Sunshinel, in your shoes i'd go to medically-supervised detox followed immediately by rehab. Even though rehab didn't work for long last time, it sounds like you are very close to rock bottom now. I don't believe it's ever too late until it is. Please take care of yourself (((hugs)))
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Join Date: Nov 2015
Location: USA
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Welcome Sunshinel, I'm so sorry you are having such a hard time. Why don't you join the November 2015 Class? We really have a great group & all support eachother. Hang in there! Hope to see you in the November class!!!
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
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Hi and welcome sunshinel 
SR has been very helpful to me - the community here has helped me so many times to remember and to stick to my determination never to drink again.
It was here than I accepted I was an alcoholic and that my life needed to change, because my life - friends, places and things - was all about drinking.
It was hard and more than a little scary - but people backed me every step of the way and I changed and my life with it...
I love who I am now and the life I have is wonderful
I hope you'll find coming here a real turning point too
D
SR has been very helpful to me - the community here has helped me so many times to remember and to stick to my determination never to drink again.
It was here than I accepted I was an alcoholic and that my life needed to change, because my life - friends, places and things - was all about drinking.
It was hard and more than a little scary - but people backed me every step of the way and I changed and my life with it...
I love who I am now and the life I have is wonderful
I hope you'll find coming here a real turning point too
D
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Join Date: Jun 2015
Location: California
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Welcome Sunshine. Can you see a physician and be very honest about your drinking? That's a good first step. Cold turkey can be dangerous. Please be safe and go through this with a dr. Best to you, keep posting!
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Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: San Francisco Bay Area
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For some of us, and I include myself, we have to hit rock bottom in order to buy-into or convince ourselves this life altering change is necessary. It sounds like you may be at this point. That's actually a good thing! Follow the advice the old timers give and stay close to SR. I look forward to reading your updates as you become one of the success stories we see around here.
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Join Date: Oct 2012
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It's not too late, sunshinel. There's hope no matter how bad things are right now. Five years ago I was sure I'd wind up dead in an alley from booze, but I now have been sober for over three years. It can be done, and you can do it, too.
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Join Date: Sep 2011
Location: UK, South Coast
Posts: 605
So sorry ur going through this, im how u started off....binge drinker, ive been sober for 5 weeks today & some days r fabulous & others r plain s**t!!! Like alot of the others have said, u know ur going to need medical support & rehab is probably ur only option. But in the meantime u can come here & get some brilliant support. Without this group id have relapsed weeks ago!!! Welcome.x
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