Crossed the first hurdle (I think).
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Crossed the first hurdle (I think).
I was taking 2.5 mg of Valium at night to help me sleep and deal with cramps as a result of the healing process of my knees. I have now gone 3 nights in a row substituting melatonin instead of Valium. First night I had a little difficulty, but the last two nights I have slept through the night. Also (I hope I don't jinx myself), I have not had ANY withdrawal effects, except maybe a little that first night. Soooo, no more Valium. One med down, one to go.
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I hope this comes across as its intended, but here's the deal. I've been a member of this site now long enough to know that addiction is a crappy thing to have, and when in it, is hell on earth. You want me to show up with dump trucks and front end loaders to build you an outdoor living space of your dreams? No problem, I'm not scared. You want me maintain 400 townhouse units year round, including snow and ice? No problem, I'm not scared. You want me to get addicted to.....anything? Scares me to death. We are not free when we are addicted. Life itself can be enough of a prison, why add to it?
I hope this comes across as its intended, but here's the deal. I've been a member of this site now long enough to know that addiction is a crappy thing to have, and when in it, is hell on earth. You want me to show up with dump trucks and front end loaders to build you an outdoor living space of your dreams? No problem, I'm not scared. You want me maintain 400 townhouse units year round, including snow and ice? No problem, I'm not scared. You want me to get addicted to.....anything? Scares me to death. We are not free when we are addicted. Life itself can be enough of a prison, why add to it?
Congrats on the meds, one more huge step to freedom.
That has always been one of my driving forces to beat my addictions.
The prison of addiction....it really cuts at me!.
All the talk about freedom to make choices to end up a puppet to a chemical..
I don't think of life as a prison, I think it is beautiful...perhaps with a lot of thorns but then there are the roses. : )
Great job on the meds.
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They were giving me 90x5mg, but I was cutting them in half or quarters because of all of the horror stories I've read on this site regarding benzodiazepines.
Jeff, I just want to tell you what a great job you are doing both with sobriety
and recovery.
You get the underlying issues and are dealing with them.
You also regularly reach out and help others that are struggling.
I really really think with all that going for you you're gonna kick this addiction crap
and leave it far behind you, and something really exciting will have room to open
up in your life.
Looking forward to seeing that. . .
and recovery.
You get the underlying issues and are dealing with them.
You also regularly reach out and help others that are struggling.
I really really think with all that going for you you're gonna kick this addiction crap
and leave it far behind you, and something really exciting will have room to open
up in your life.
Looking forward to seeing that. . .
Jeff, that's great! You have a good attitude about managing your meds. I also work hard to minimize use of addictive ones. We use them when we need to but recognize the risks and take them in a limited way - as they were intended :-)
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