Frozen: Day 3
Frozen: Day 3
She posts happily and freely in the forum and the words just flow on the screen like water. She hasn't felt real feelings for a while, but as the days go by, her numbness is lessened. She's been told by a few in her life before that she has every right to enjoy her life but that feels foreign to her. What? How can she live the life she chooses? How does that work when so many characters around her have put her into the costume she needs to wear? The feelings she needs to feel? The life she needs to live? Nevertheless she embraces this sobriety thing and things are going well for her. She plans the day when she can live the life she wants, alone again at first until she gets her life together. She feels hope. He can see on her face a new light, a new sense of self and he detests it. He stands over her back, to her side and she freezes. Her fingers fumble and she gets writers block....she's not supposed to be talking about happiness and sobriety. This is something that goes against his plan. He tells her he can't stand her being happy about making new plans that do not involve him. She stares in disbelief as these words that were so normal in her drunken days, hit her like a stone...."How can this be right?" She suddenly gets the nerve up, her frozen fingers get unfrozen once again, and she begins to let the words flow on the screen, stories of oppression, stories of hopelessness, but followed by stories of hope and self love. He walks away...she smiles.
Yes - I think many of us end up coming to the same conclusion. I think more than we know many of us drank to avoid the loveless marriage we found ourselves in (and still are in) but like you working to find the light and they way to make ourselves happy - once we know what that is...
Stay strong.
Stay strong.
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