Lucie29

I have been coming here for well over a year now, with 4 months being the longest stretch of sobriety. I've had a month here and there, but always fool myself into thinking I can handle it. I never can. After another blackout night embarrassing myself and being awful to my loving boyfriend, I'm at day 1 again. I went to an AA meeting today, and made an appointment with my doctor so she can refer me to a counselor. I got phone numbers from a few girls at the meeting, and I'm going to keep going. I always start out with a plan but after a few weeks I stop following through. I need to do this, it's beyond out of control. I know I can't do it alone. Thanks for listening, for the hundredth time.

biminiblue

We're glad you're back, Lucie. Hang around a lot - this place can give you lots of support and ideas when you need help. I found it's really helpful to join a "Class" thread and post in a couple other threads regularly - like the 24 Hour Connections or Weekenders threads.

Lucie29

I will try that, thanks! I'll try anything at this point, nothing else seems to work! I need to put in the work this time.

biminiblue

I think just reading isn't enough for me, I need to type out my thoughts and get feedback from others in order to keep myself on task.

teatreeoil007

Hi Lucie-good on you for coming back...you can do this...never give up!

Anna

Lucie, the most important thing is that you are back. I hope you make a plan to continue posting and reading here because I think you will always find inspiration.

resolute50

Welcome back, Lucie.
If you come back 100 times we'll all be here for you.
It sounds like you are really done with this. The steps you have taken show how determined you are. That is one of the keys to beating this.

SoberLeigh

Welcome back, Lucie; I am sorry to hear that you have been struggling.

We are here for you and understand how difficult this thing is.

Lucie29

Thanks for all the kind words. It is so shameful to keep coming back over and over. I will keep trying with everything I've got though!

resolute50

It took me quite a few tries before I got some good long sober time.
You never really fail as long as you keep trying.

PurpleKnight

Welcome back Lucie!!

Dee74

Hi Lucie

Posting here on a regular basis really helped me to make my recovery a new way of life, not just a temporary change.

No matter how many times you've tried before the only time that really counts is this time - give it all you have

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thomas11

I've always felt pretty strongly that as long as your are still trying, you're still in the fight. Congratulations on taking steps to assist you by reaching out.

Soberwolf

Hi Lucie