Introduction: Journey 2.0
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Introduction: Journey 2.0
I just wanted to introduce myself as I start this journey for the second time. I'm facing the beast head on this time. After over a year sober the first time, I know I can do it.
The main reason I failed the first time was because I had convinced myself that I could socially drink without it being a problem. Well....that didn't last long until I was completely out of control again.
I'm trying to look at things a little differently this time around...ZERO TOLERANCE is the only way I can succeed. Right now I'm 23 days sober and feeling great however, the beast is ALWAYS calling my name. It's so weird how the addiction is always calling me back to it and how real it is....I hope I can survive. I've had a really good last few days but today is very difficult.
The main reason I failed the first time was because I had convinced myself that I could socially drink without it being a problem. Well....that didn't last long until I was completely out of control again.
I'm trying to look at things a little differently this time around...ZERO TOLERANCE is the only way I can succeed. Right now I'm 23 days sober and feeling great however, the beast is ALWAYS calling my name. It's so weird how the addiction is always calling me back to it and how real it is....I hope I can survive. I've had a really good last few days but today is very difficult.
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Just my 2 cents, but when you say ZERO TOLERANCE it sounds to me like you're fighting it. I find it easier to just accept the fact that I'll never drink again. To me it feels less like an everyday battle.
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That makes sense but what I really meant was....after I was sober for over a year I started back down the destructive path by a drink every once in a while which turned into...on the weekends which turned into every day.
Thanks for your feedback!
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Welcome TP770. Since you've been successful in the past, now just learn from your downfall and pick up where you left off.
I did the same thing when I had 9 months sober a couple years back. Thought I could drink normal and moderate... it didn't take long before I was drinking daily again. The problem is it then got worse and I started drinking in the mornings and at work.
I had the same realization that you are having now. I can't ever drink again. Once I accepted that, a weight was lifted and so much anxiety was kicked to the curb.
Well done on picking yourself up and starting the journey again.
Congrats on 23 days!
I did the same thing when I had 9 months sober a couple years back. Thought I could drink normal and moderate... it didn't take long before I was drinking daily again. The problem is it then got worse and I started drinking in the mornings and at work.
I had the same realization that you are having now. I can't ever drink again. Once I accepted that, a weight was lifted and so much anxiety was kicked to the curb.
Well done on picking yourself up and starting the journey again.
Congrats on 23 days!
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Originally Posted by ccam1973 
Welcome TP770. Since you've been successful in the past, now just learn from your downfall and pick up where you left off.
I did the same thing when I had 9 months sober a couple years back. Thought I could drink normal and moderate... it didn't take long before I was drinking daily again. The problem is it then got worse and I started drinking in the mornings and at work.
I had the same realization that you are having now. I can't ever drink again. Once I accepted that, a weight was lifted and so much anxiety was kicked to the curb.
Well done on picking yourself up and starting the journey again.
Congrats on 23 days!
I did the same thing when I had 9 months sober a couple years back. Thought I could drink normal and moderate... it didn't take long before I was drinking daily again. The problem is it then got worse and I started drinking in the mornings and at work.
I had the same realization that you are having now. I can't ever drink again. Once I accepted that, a weight was lifted and so much anxiety was kicked to the curb.
Well done on picking yourself up and starting the journey again.
Congrats on 23 days!
I know I can do it...thanks for the support!
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Welcome to SoberRecovery, TP770!
Here are some good threads to join:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post5623870
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post5626487
Here are some good threads to join:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post5623870
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post5626487
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Originally Posted by Fly N Buy
When I learned it's a WE thing, life got a lot easier! 
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Welcome/welcome back TP - good to have you here 
If you're framing things in Beast parlance, you might be interested in the AVRT info and discussion in our Secular Connections forum as well
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...r-connections/
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If you're framing things in Beast parlance, you might be interested in the AVRT info and discussion in our Secular Connections forum as well
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...r-connections/
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