megsykreeg

It's been quite awhile since I last posted. My husband finally hit bottom. He didn't actually cheat on me. So thankful for that. He admitted he called an escort but doesn't know if she showed up bc he passed out. I'm glad he was too drunk to answer the door. He detoxed at the hospital then stayed at a halfway house for a week and then flew to Okeechobee, fl. That was six wks ago. He did sign a power of attorney over to me before he left. He cashed out his 401K and I was able to deposit the money.

The place he's at is a Christian 9 month program. They are not allowed weekly phone calls like other places he's been. At first he was angry and said he felt tricked to go but now he's settled in and agrees that it was for the best. We write very regular letters.

I had our second girl on Wednesday and was able to FaceTime him. It's been very emotional and rough without him but it's for the best. I didn't know I could be this strong. To be honest though I really miss my husband. Raising two kids alone is overwhelming and hard.

Everyone seems to have an opinion about what I should do and how I should act. No one truly understands what I'm going thru. They talk like I can't make my own decisions and then decide what I should do. The latest is that I shouldn't visit my husband. Ummm... Yeah why would it be a good idea for a man to not see his family for 9 mos. to never meet his daughter until she's 6 mos old. I think that's terrible. I guess I'm not really asking for any advice just venting some.

Stung

Yes it is. I have been exactly where you are. My daughters are 4 years old and 2 years old. Do you see my join date over there to the left? My youngest daughter was 5 months old when I joined this site and that was when things hit the very rock bottom for me.

I don't have advice for you or an opinion on what you should do. BUT I do want to tell you that you are capable. I use to think to myself in those early days that things would be SO MUCH EASIER with my husband around. But even when he was actually around, things were actually just as difficult. I was still doing all the work.

When our youngest had just turned 1 my husband went to rehab and life felt really difficult again.

I just want you to know that you can do this and I'm sorry that you don't have a supportive husband by your side helping to raise your family with you. You and your daughters absolutely deserve that and so much more.

Very big hugs to you and your littles. And congratulations!!!

maia1234

Congratulations on the baby. You have a lot going on with being a single mom of a new born.

Take your time, and don't make an rash decisions. You will make the right decision when you have to make it.

Hugs my friend and try and get some sleep!!