Devil On My Back
Devil On My Back
I kill the lights, but the lies are sleepless.
Night heaves with the bleakest secrets.
A shadow waits in the black,
and I awake with a devil on my back.
I'm contesting my reckless weakness,
desperately wrestling restless demons,
but all the odds are stacked,
guess I'm no match for the devil on my back.
And I plead for my peace, like a dead man walking
and I plead for my peace and I can't stand more of this.
But still I pretend I can mend this
and ascend this hopelessness, then end this
but then the whip gets cracked.
I get knocked flat by the devil....
And I look into the eyes of the love of my life,
and swear blind that the darkest times are behind,
but it's another ******* lie just to cover my tracks,
another part of her dies, for the devil on my back.
And I plead for my peace like a dead man walking,
I plead for my peace cos I can't stand more of this.
So I regress to the cesspit, friendless.
Too breathless to defend, I descend to the depths
of the mess I've amassed.
I get no rest from the devil on my back
And I plead for my peace like a dead man walking,
I plead for my peace and I can't stand more of this.
I plead for my peace as the darkness taunts me,
and I plead for my peace from a past that haunts me.
My heart is heavy and restless. I am not drinking but feeling quite off. Lonely and desperate somehow. Putting it out there. I so want to connect with someone...
Excellent song though, isn't it? I'm pretty sure he's singing about addiction.
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Hello,
I'm probably not much help with addiction as its my boyfriend that's currently going though it, but I'm always willing to listen and help if you want an ear.
Do you know what's made you feel so glum today? Or is it just one of those days?
Oh and my BF would totally be loving that song right now I'm sure. Very apt indeed!
I'm probably not much help with addiction as its my boyfriend that's currently going though it, but I'm always willing to listen and help if you want an ear.
Do you know what's made you feel so glum today? Or is it just one of those days?
Oh and my BF would totally be loving that song right now I'm sure. Very apt indeed!
It's been building up over the past few weeks and seems to be escalating. Extremely restless and want to howl at the moon. Thanks, I don't even know how to talk about this. But afraid if I don't I might isolate and indulge the desperation.
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Have you got friends and family for support?
Sorry for the questions, I just don't know anything about your situation
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A early night sounds good - that might help the tiredness aspect.. One less thing to battle with.
Are you busy in a good way? As in, have hobbies or fun time for yourself? Everyone needs a bit of recreation to escape things.
Or is it work that is taking all your time?
I'm busy in a good way as in I really enjoy my job, but it completely wipes me out. I try to plan some recreational activities but get tired afterwards too. I'm just a bundle of joy...
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What kind of recreational hobbies do you like?
I like exercise, walks, chain-watching shows, reading and listening to gut-wrenching music apparently. That about sums up my spare time. Thanks again for your kindness and interest. I hope you and your boyfriend are well...
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