ulfr

i dont know weather i should write this at all
this morning i went to confession because i thought it was the right thing to do am born roman Catholic i havent been to confession in years but felt it was needed to be done .
i was abused by a priest when i was young
tonight am feeling so triggered because i can smell tobacco one of my abusers smelt of tobacco
my personalities feel upset we want to hurt ourselves but there nothing here we can use to hurt ourselves

want to use want to drink too late to go to an AA meeting

Anna

Is your husband nearby, DeathMetal?

If not, you could go to a hospital emergency room. Please do that if you are concerned about taking care of yourself.

Soberwolf

Have you got air freshener

DirtyHippie

Hang on, if you makes you feel less alone, I'm struggling bad today myself.

ulfr

we dont have air freshner but my husband says he cant smell it

am going tobed ...my husband said i dont need to use or drink i just need sleep

ulfr

Went to bed after i posted this but av woken up now
made myself a cup of tea going to try and keep us busy
little ones want to play with the smilies

keeppushing

MY thoughts are with you. Stay strong.

KP

Dee74

I'm glad you're feeling a little better DM.

I'm Catholic too but I haven't been to Confession in a long time. I preferred it when they had the mass ceremony Rite of Reconcilliation.

I don't think there's anything wrong at all with simply praying to God and asking Him to absolve your sins.

D

ulfr

its 7.05 am here husbands in bed
i decided am not going to let the past define who i am and what i want to do
the alters are part of my past but there also my family they protected me for all those years and they still are protecting me
we are not victims any more we are survivors

Yes Dee74 you are right i can pray anywhere for my sins to be forgiven

its good to you know that you all care about us
Thank you

Rio97

Hey DM, I have a past too that haunts me and it's gotten me drunk on many nights. I'm doing everything I can to try to let it go, and at this point everything is on the table. I hope you can find the right steps to work through it and move on to a great life ahead of you. Do whatever it takes. Good luck.

Nonsensical

(That judge on the right with the 9.9 is cracked. That was perfect.)

saoutchik

Good attitude DM. I'm glad you are feeling better today