This hangover feels like death
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This hangover feels like death
I swear I am NEVER putting myself through this again. What the hell is the point??? I drank for 2 days straight and I feel absolutely disoriented right now.
All that ever comes from getting drunk is pain and bad decision making. Now I have to continue adding guilt to my already guilty conscience, and live with the fact that I keep making ******** decisions as an adult.
Today, 10/12/2015, is my final sober date. No more failing and relapsing. This is going to be the ultimate commitment. Going to go day by day. I need to be true to myself and actually have respect for my own promise.
I'm going to end the year strong, and start the new year even stronger. This is it, I'm sticking to my guns, a drug is a drug and alcohol is the worst of them. I do not want to be known as a drug user.
All that ever comes from getting drunk is pain and bad decision making. Now I have to continue adding guilt to my already guilty conscience, and live with the fact that I keep making ******** decisions as an adult.
Today, 10/12/2015, is my final sober date. No more failing and relapsing. This is going to be the ultimate commitment. Going to go day by day. I need to be true to myself and actually have respect for my own promise.
I'm going to end the year strong, and start the new year even stronger. This is it, I'm sticking to my guns, a drug is a drug and alcohol is the worst of them. I do not want to be known as a drug user.
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Well done you. I remember that horrible horrible feeling -hardly being able to move for pain and sickness..awful
What scares me is that I don't get hangovers any more no matter how much I drink!
Be kind to yourself and take care.
What scares me is that I don't get hangovers any more no matter how much I drink!
Be kind to yourself and take care.
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3 months today, time sure does fly by when you don't keep track of every single day.
I had a lot of sober time in 2015 (with a lot of effort), but it wasn't a flawless year. With that said, I've never felt better mentally.
I had a lot of sober time in 2015 (with a lot of effort), but it wasn't a flawless year. With that said, I've never felt better mentally.
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Originally Posted by Dee74 
You can make it so OfEpiphany 
what's your plan?
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what's your plan?
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Originally Posted by OfEpiphany
Education, making sure I know when PAWS strikes. The sneaky culprit of relapse. But to be entirely honest, my eyes have been awakened to how much damage alcohol was causing to my mind, I will never return to that mental state again. What a dangerous substance, glamorized, extremely potent to the brain, and I never suspected it to be the cause of my misery being I only drank heavily on the weekends. But clearly, keeping that pattern up for 7-8 years will change your brain.
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Originally Posted by OfEpiphany
What a dangerous substance, glamorized, extremely potent to the brain, and I never suspected it to be the cause of my misery being I only drank heavily on the weekends. But clearly, keeping that pattern up for 7-8 years will change your brain.
"Only when we step away from all these supposed pleasures and understand how we are being duped to believe we are receiving real benefits can we begin to live our lives free from any desire or need for drinking."
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