Day 80!
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Day 80!
Its been an emotional roller coaster, but almost 3 months sober now and physically and mentally I am feeling good! Expect the ups and the downs, the temptations, the good and the bad days but the benefits of quitting far out weigh continuing to drink. I sleep better, Im up with my kids of a morning instead of staggering around half asleep half arsed fixing breakfast and going back to bed and staying there all day. I asked my kids what they think of mummy not drinking my eldest said that Im not asleep all the time and that I take more responsibilty around the house and take care of myself better (wow!) my other child said that I am more fun and spend more time with him (wow again) My antidepressants are working and I actually feel happy and blessed with my simple life. The atmosphere in my house is much calmer, Im calmer. My husband is less stressed - I am really seeing how my drinking really affected the household. When drinking I blamed everyone for my unhappiness when in reality the problem lied with me.
The thing that is working for me is the one day at a time attitude. I havent made any promises to anybody not even myself that I will never drink again, I find by doing this I am not setting myself a high expectation. I could if I wanted to, drink again but .... I really dont want to. The desire to drink is fading, slowly but surely, it is fading. I still get the occassional day and probably always will, but my desire NOT to drink is more than wanting to.
By no means have conqured my addiction, once an alcoholic always an alcoholic. I am not saying I wont relapse but sure as hell I know I dont want to. Relapse scares me.
Thats my 80 day journey in a nutshell. Today, I wont have a drink.
The thing that is working for me is the one day at a time attitude. I havent made any promises to anybody not even myself that I will never drink again, I find by doing this I am not setting myself a high expectation. I could if I wanted to, drink again but .... I really dont want to. The desire to drink is fading, slowly but surely, it is fading. I still get the occassional day and probably always will, but my desire NOT to drink is more than wanting to.
By no means have conqured my addiction, once an alcoholic always an alcoholic. I am not saying I wont relapse but sure as hell I know I dont want to. Relapse scares me.
Thats my 80 day journey in a nutshell. Today, I wont have a drink.
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